Acute viral nasopharyngitis

Sneezing and blowing my nose constantly, my used tissues (filled with mucus ^^) are overflowing out of the bin like an erupted volcano that had just been set off.
My nose looks like Rudolf's, how much sexier could i get?
Every time i take a nap or sleep i would breath through my mouth causing me to 'map' most of the time!! LOL wakakakaka If you shine those UV ray lights in the dark onto my pillow or bed u would find a few spots :P
Wanted to buy some medications, found out that it cost a fortune!! Average AUD$ 16 (RM48) for 24 tablets. Those are medications found on supermarket's shelves, it would cost more if I get them from pharmacies. Very costly, so decided to bare with the cold.

Anyways, I wonder how are you guys doing?

Missing you guys!
Keep me updated with life ok?

See u guys soon in June!!

taggy-tag-thingy

Tagged by Ooi Sher Mei@ dd

Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who got tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!

Six weird things about myself.. So hard oh wanna think..... korek kepala kejap yer...
ok, here goes

1) I would stay up the whole night reading books, provided that it's my cup of tea.. but when it comes to educational books, it puts me into a deep trance the very second i open it..

2) I oni go to the loo like 2 to 3 times a day.. sometimes once... my parents says that i'm not normal.. but i feel normal

3) Nature calls ( poo poo) whenever i enter the computer room back home.. Every single bloody time... it's a distraction, but still have to do my business b4 resuming back into wateva m doing..

4) I enjoy classical music (Love and envy mozart) and also new age (Enya is the best!)..

5) I love eating weird food.. such as pig's organs.. chicken feet.. frog, eel, crocs, etc

6) My little finger is huge compare to my friend's.. Mine is a size 10! Jen li's is a size 5 and jill's is a size 4... Huge pinky finger i have here ^^

Let's see.. 6 victims..
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5)
6)

no victims.. fill in ur own name if u feel like doing it
can't think of any1 to be tagged *.*

Tag-able Q-airre from metropolis boar

A tag-able Q-airre.. I got tagged via friendster.. And since I'm no fan of posting answers to surveys on the bulletin board anymore, i decide to put it here instead..
Rules are simple:
i) answer all the Qs
ii) tag 5 ppl at the last Q (original was 10 ppl ok, so i'm being generous here)
iii) let them know you tagged them

1. Do you know where yourcrush/lover is right now?
Yup
2. Last time you hugged someone?
No idea
3. What is something you've learned about yourself recently?
I'm not ready for uni
4. What color is your watch?
Pink.. don't wear it anymore
5. Do you like anyone?
more like infatuated
6. Do you know of anyone who likes you?
Ermmmm my parents, family and frens.. counted kah?
7. Where do you work?
looking for one
8. What are you listening to right now?
Run by Snow patrol
9. What do you smell like?
Smell like body lotion
10. What are your dreams that keep recurring?
sleep like a pig, so don't remember my dreams
11. Closest thing to your left?
pens.. my evo into a geek
12. What color is your bedroom?
in aus it's white walls and blinds made out of wood. in mas it's pinkish and pinkish curtains
13. Do you have a chair in your room?
... yes
14. Time you were born?
no idea
15. Do you know anyone who is not here in your country?
kim suan, laine, mat...
16. What's your favorite number?
23
17. Do you know someone who hates you?
no idea.. oh wait, my enemies i guess..
18. What color is your mom's hair?
dark brown
19. Do you have a dog?
nope.. wish to have one
20. Do you remember singing any songsas a kid?
ermm don't think so
21. When was the last time you wentswimming?
ages... since that karam trip
22. When was the last time you talkedto one of your siblings?
earlier today
23. Did you ever go to a camp as achild?
once in school.. not a camping person
24. Do you play any instruments?
guitar
25. Do you like fire?
love it wen i use it to cook
hate it when it kills
26. Are you allergic to anything?
got but no idea wat
27. When was the last time you crieed?
no remember
30. Did you take science all fouryears of high school?
still taking
31. Do you like butterflies?
they r pretty but no big fan
33. What is one thing you miss aboutyour past?
loadz
34. Have you ever seen the schoolcounselor?
yups
35. Have you ever wanted to be ateacher?
heck no way
36. What is one thing you've learnedabout life?
nothing happens with a snap of ur fingers
u've gotta work for it
37. Are you jealous of anyone?
should i be?
38. Is anyone jealous of you?
should any1 be??
39. Ever been stuck in an elevator?
no
40. What does your mom call you?
girl.. mei mei.. mei
41. What does your friends call you?
daph, daphy duck, banana, daphus, mei mei, daphy
42. What does you hair look like rightnow?
short and messy.. no comb
43. Has a friend ever used you?
yup.. for the good of mankind.. ( m just crapping)
44. Has anyone recently told you thatthey like you?
no
45. What have you eaten today?
breakfast nectarine
snack salmon sandwhich
lunch ceaser salad
tea chesse and crackers
dinner rice, carrot and brocolli and pork
46. Is your hair naturally curly orstraight?
straight
47. What is your favorite movie?
7 years in tibet, HP, LOTR, DC movies... etc
48. Who was the last person you drovewith?
arleen
49. What are you looking forward to?
ging back to malaysia
50. Five people you want to tag doing this
Hua, Van, Kim S, ___,___

I was never ready and i'm still not ready

As i took my first step into uni, i was first mesmerized by the beauty of it...
The compound was as big and probably bigger than Sutera Harbour, first day getting around caused my both heels to have blisters.. OUCH
Second day i wore flip flops, thong style, the crack between my big toe and 2nd toe too had blistered.. OUCH OUCH

Attended orientation on my first day there.. Everything felt so wrong. I felt as if I was too young to attend uni, compare to the other students present. They look wise and it seemed like they knew what did they had to do.. As for me, my mind was a total blank... I wasn't prepared for this.. i still can't face the fact that i'm starting uni.. FEAR appears every moment i try to swallow the fact that i'm here, starting uni.
How shall i prepare myself to face this coming Monday, the day i start to battle my way through uni till i graduate?
I'll figure it out before the day comes.. Having faith in myself (i think)...

Missing u guys!!
Love hugs and kisses

3rd chance

as i read up bout some medical stuff related to 'the two days', i was taken back by the fact that it could have been my last few days in this world. I was that ill 0.0
it was raw to me, what was happening and what did she meant and why was i there...
no courage was build to utter my curiosity, life was morbid enough for me that moment.. as i just wanna live life as it was and swallow every single bit of sorrowness and try to get it over with...
As i recover and my curiosity kicked in, i checked it up...
i thank lord for giving me a 3rd chance~

...The Two Days...

Two days of my life

It's said that life is short. Is it that short? Isn't life long enough for us to live the journey we are destined to live? Or we are just plain greedy, we humans would never be satisfied till we find eternity?

The last 2 days of my life was sort of like hell.. probably more like a mini version of hell. I guess it's just karma, my debts in the past life are claimed in this life. I've not complained or uttered a single word for all the sufferings (probably a test from god) I've gone through. I've never questioned 'it' (not referring to god) why it choose me, why do i have to endure it for my whole life. All I've done is cry myself to sleep thinking about it. Being poked by a bunch of needles sucks like hell. Blood being drawn not only through my veins but my arteries (caused my arteries on both sides of my arms to swell). Depended on an IV bag for 2 days, feel the IV liquid pass intravenous through my veins, ain't a pleasant feeling. All watched me go through it with a morbid face, no pain or emotions are shown. My inner dark and twisty is awaken from deep under.

I refuse to show it to you.
I refuse to share it with you.
I refuse to tell it to you.

I'm sorry, i do not want you to know how i felt while going through all this. If i showed you how i felt, it would hurt you, and it would hurt me more. I rather take the full impact than see you hurt.

Giving up stuff i love in live takes more than an effort. It takes something that i do not have..

I hate being weak.
I hate being defeated.
I hate being like this.

Dedication is what is shall seek for.

I want to be stronger.
I want to be my own hero.
I want to stand on my own 2 feet.
I want to FIGHT it.

I WILL WIN THIS BATTLE.

You should not worry, as i have grown.
I love you more than ever. You mean the world to me.
Having you in life makes me stronger.

I Love You

A mask i put on to cover EverythinG

Screaming my lungs out on top of the world, is my only wish now.
My inner anger had been triggered earlier...
It hurts in the inside so badly till tears of sorrow comes falling down on to earth...
No signs of anger is being shown on the outside as i fear the consequences i would face...

You pushed my limits without realising it.
Why can't you just understand what i feels in the inside towards everything? It's not that hard to spare a second of your life to know what's going on inside one of your loved ones... I'm not asking for your eternity, all i ever want is to know that you know me better not only on the outside but also in the inside. As you wouldn't know, all this while I've been putting on a mask, locking up everything in the inside of me.. Do not blame me for not sharing, the connection that we build together is like a hanging bridge made out of wood that has been infected by termites...

You think you know me? The only think you know is the mask i put on ever since that incident happened. It's carved deep in my heart, an event that plays over and over again in my mind.

All i can feel now is the torturous pain in my chest.
I wonder when would it heal?
Would it heal by tomorrow? or I would have to put on my mask again?