Placement hunting is seriously a pain in the arse.
Up and down, near and far i search for a pharmacy that would take me in, and teach me.
Before i enter, i enter with high hopes and confident, but when i exit, i exit with sadness and crushed hopes.
It is hard and tough, harder and tougher than exams.
All i want to do it sit on a rock at the corner and cry my eyes out.
It is just so tiring and disappointing, no light is ever in sight.

The only day i start seeing light again is when i know that someone has taken me in and willing to teach me.

Going to try my luck again tomorrow.
Oh lady luck, please be with me.

-daph-
sick and tired

wonder ponder

if i could just turn back time and not taken it lightly
i won't be in this very spot now
should i regret and whine about it? or should i take it as a lesson
i know that i won't learn from my mistakes, that is how stubborn i am
and i know regretting over it is just not me

i guess i would have to face it, full steam ahead on a white horse in shinning armor

hols

I'm officially enjoying my holidays to the max.
Loving the nice and cool weather, but not particularly in love with the rain.

Shopping shopping shopping
It's what every girl does best =D

Bough a new pair of converse, a pair of sun glasses, and new clothes.

Can't wait to do more shopping!

oral exam

It's 2am 14th of November now, and at 9am, i would be having my oral exam.

I am going to do some really last minute studying in a couple of minutes and then head to bed.
I had 7 freaking exams already and drive has been squeezed dry out of my system.
There isn't an inch of motivation left.

I just can wait to get it done and over with. After tomorrow's exam, i am free!
Well, free till result's day, aka, JUDGMENT DAY.
More like DOOMS DAY or DIE DAY for me.

oh wells, better start studying for my oral exam now.

Love hugs and kisses

-daph-
sitting for oral exam in a dead condition

all steam ahead

PHRM2041 (Drug Discovery A2) tomorrow 10/11/08 at 1115hour

Initially i planned to study diligently for the whole day...
But knowing me, great procrastinator, i delayed and delayed and delayed till 9pm.
And i'm not even studying just yet... instead i'm blogging.

*round of applause*

I guess i would be pulling another all nighter tonight.
Burning the midnight oil. Hopefully i won't die due to too much carbon monoxide through inhalation.
touch wood touch wood

Whipped out a can of redbull, and ready to start my V12 engine soon.
Wish me luck! and pray for me!

ladididada

-daph-
GMBATEH

jog jog till really half dead

Let me teach you guys a valuable lesson, k?

Never ever go and jog full speed right after pulling an all nighter.

Yes, i stupidly did it without realizing its consequences.

For the past 1.5 months, i have not had any adequate sleep yet.
Been taking excessive amounts of caffeine, till there are a few noticeable changes, but its not a concern.

Anyways, back to me being stupid...

My mom went to the market with my uncle, and i decided to jog my heart out, hoping to get the adrenaline rush i was seeking for to keep me awake.
With the endogenous adrenaline i would be able to last through my exam paper later at 11.15am to 1.15pm without the need of caffeine.
But..... without thinking about the outcome, i rather do a little experiment and observe and experience the outcome myself.
Bravo to me!
Instantly i felt unwell after hitting the 500m mark. I could feel my whole system shaking and in desperate need of oxygen.
If i ran an extra 10m, i would have experience lactic acidosis =p jk jk

Once i felt unwell, i slowed down, and tried catching my breath.
Decided to stop.
Even after 30mins, i'm still shaking a little. Breathing and heart rate have not returned to normal yet.
Feeling a little nauseas and dizzy.

My body is trying to knock some sense into me -> "You dumbwitt idiot, stop putting me under soooooo muchhhhhh stressssss!!~~"

Well i learned my lesson.
I'm plain human.

-daph-
psychotic me

crack like an egg

Noyes-whitney, Fick's Law, intraparticulate, interparticulate, true density, bulk density, granule density, total porosity, cube root law, stoke's law, powder, particle, feret's diameter, martin's diameter, projected area diameter, first order kinetics, zero order kinetics, suspension, , half life, shelf life, psuedo kinetics, crystalline, unit cells, polymorphism, sedimentation, caking, emulsion, table die, flow, excipients, magnesium stearate........ etc etc etc

Been studying and studying and studying.....
It never seem to end


I'm scared about tomorrow's paper.
Every time i think about it, i could feel everything churn in me.
It gives me shivers down my spine.

I fear that i won't do well.

My heart pounds harder than a tiger pounds its preys

I'm practically going crazy over pharmacy.

I'm stressed out, and i'm not coping well.
I don't deal well with stress. Who does?


I should be studying instead of blogging now, but i'm experiencing a temporary mental block out.

Have you ever recorded what you feel when all of a sudden your brain seize due to the amount of studying? This is what i felt -

My heart rate increased dramatically
I felt extremely restless
I felt as if i would burst into tears
I felt angry too at the same time
I want to let it out, it has to come out, but what should be released?
I want to continue studying, but something is holding me back, its demanding me not to
All of a sudden it felt as if my blood pressure dropped
Feeling dizzy and having blurred vision
I stop and took a deep breath to clear my mind
Trying to bring myself back

Once succeeded to step back on the plate
The momentum to study has gone
But it has to be built up as quick as possible, there is no time.

-daph-
buried under notes accompanied by stress
'it's only a matter of time till i self-destruct'

maxE

How many countries can you name?
I got addicted playing this simple game, and i'm not that good at it. My best was 63 countries (after numeral times), first time i played i only scored 45 =(

It is 1.49pm now and i have a paper to sit at 2.30pm, and i'm sitting in front of my com blogging.

All i wanna do now is sleep. It's raining, it's nice and cold, the perfect weather to nap. But darn it, there is a paper waiting for me to conquer.

US presidential election is still going on, and i'm hopping for Obama to win. If he wins he would be the first black american to win, and this would change the world a lot. Hopefully it would change my country, change the way people think.

'Some people think so tight that they suffer from migraine 24-7.'

Can't wait to get exams done and over with.

-daph-
exam hater

brain brain u look like walnut

How?
Exam at 11.15am, now 10.09am.. And i'm blogging...

Nerves twirl and swirl inside me, making funny sensations.

Feeling so sleepy and tired.
Did not had enough sleep not because i stayed up all night studying, but i blame it all on my brain.

Why does my brain has to keep on working?
I planned to sleep at 12am, but at the end i slept at 2am.
Brain was restless, i switched it off, but it had its back-up generator.
So it went on running till no power was left.

See now, brain used up all the power, no more power left.
How to go for "WAR"?

Tsk tsk
Anyways, i still love u brain.
Make sure can work efficiently ah, and pour out all the embedded information.

-daph-
getting ready for paper number 1