Stop and look.
Look at everyone around you.
Look at everything you have.

Isn't it enough?
Knowing you it's never enough...
But when is enough, enough for you?
Some people do not even have anything, all they have are things/stuff they never wished for.
You do not know the value of anything and everything.

Do not say that i do not know anything because I'm younger then you, because I dare say that I do know more than you.
You think that I'm constantly under my shell, being ignorant towards everything happening out there, this only shows that you were the one 'snuggling' in your blind bubble cause you did not saw anything happening, you even missed everything that happened in front of you. You think everything runs your way, everything has to work based in your 'theory'.

WAKE UP DUDE! You did not created this world, you do not have the power to say anything and everything you want.
Open your senses and except others.

You think that you are the only important thing is this world and every has to revolve around you.
Everyone has to adjust to your liking.
When you don't get thinks done your way you throw a fit or a tantrum.
And now you want to give up because you do not like the things happening in your life.

It seems as if you are a 'never ending apocalypse', how long do i have to wait till it ends?
Or do i have to wait till a lot of them have to be sacrifice before the 'day of awakening' arrives?

Random pics

an entry b4 entering Hiatus mode

This couple of weeks has been a real ride for me.

Been emotionally affected by the PHRM2010 lecture series.
Every word that relates to me i could feel it.
Never ever a pleasant feeling, it's just one of those things that wouldn't turn nice no matter how hard i pray.
I tend to shelter it from everyone, don't blame me but it's just something that i do not want to share.
Don't ask me what is it that i keep so tightly bound in me, all i'll say is nothing.

Had one day packed with fun, but i was totally dried up towards the end of the day.
For the first time in my life, i played netball!
And i did not sucked that much =D
It was tiring, and the only downside was that on the day we played, it was the hottest day ever! The sun was blazing HOT! It burn right through my skin... now i've got rosy-cheeks, which hurts a lot!
As most of you know already, i hate sunburns!!!!
Sadly i did not applied my layers of sunblock because i never did had to during the winter period.
After netball, which ended around 1pm, the malaysian society organized a bbq lunch.

My friends and i headed home after that to get ready for riverfest.
Riverfest was awesome as usual =D
Fireworks plus the jet? (those planes which army uses for battle, yang got api keluar from the exhaust pipe? (got kah on jet?) to make them go faster).
It was plain awesome.

After it ended, we headed to the city looking for dinner. Looking for a place to eat was HARD! But we managed to find some food at Little Singapore. Food was alright, so was the price. Had Prawn mee, which was no where as nice as Olde Town? or was it the other shop yg Laine tidak suka? I lupa lah nama kedai tu.

Took the bus home and reached home around 11? 12?
Head straight to bed.

Love hugs and kisses,
-daph with rosy-cheeks due to sunburns-

HIATUS MODE!
-sorry kim, i've not had the chance to complete the tag.
-sorry guys, i said early that i would post some pics up, but time constriction issue.

Am i an insomniac?

Not much stuff happening lately, except for the overly gruesome uni workload.

Today is the 5th day that i woke up at 4am in the morning automatically, with only 4 hours of sleep each day is not enough to keep me alive and kicking throughout the whole day.

This morning i decided to dose myself with caffeine as it would a be a long day for me (lecture from 9-12, placement from 12.30 to 4.30). It's been quite a while since i took coffee in the morning (used to take a cup of coffee everyday last semester), and I have never experienced hyperactivity from caffeine before. First 2 hours of the lecture i felt normal, till the third hour when i started feeling a little agitated. I had a hard time concentrating and i could not sit still, my hands were sweating and shaking unconsciously. My heart started to beat faster, and it was as if it was beating outside it's cavity.

I started to feel sick, i just wanted to head home and bury myself into a deep sleep.
But i couldn't miss this placement or i would have to replace it on another day, which i do not have that extra day. I tried drinking more water to help lower down the blood concentration of caffeine, which did helped a lot (thank you chem/pharm).

I had something to fill my tummy before heading to the pharmacy to do my placement, practically had to drag myself into the pharmacy.
Throughout the whole 4 hours placement session, i could feel every single drip of energy leaking out of me like a busted gas tank; i felt like superman being affected by kryptonite.
I survived the 4 hour session, and barely hanging on, i was walking on jello.

On the bus i was pondering why is today 'weak daphne day'.
How 'd-ooh' could i be?
No duh it is 'weak daphne day', i have not been getting the sleep i need to rest my body efficiently.

Had a huge dinner today, pho, delicious! and stomach satisfying.
My bro, a friend and I decided to have a look at an asian supermarket, and see what junkfood we could purchase to gorge on =D
Walking through the aisle, all of a sudden my heart wasn't feeling well.. I could feel my beat and heart rate going wild, my veins were pumping with blood, my pulse was pulsating like mad.
It is how my body is trying to shout and grab my attention, "You bloody hell need to rest! ASAP! PRONTO!"

I should be getting some rest now, but i just finished printing out my notes and which i still have not looked through yet. I've got an assignment to do, and i have not taken my shower yet. And also i needed to post this entry before i continue killing myself silently =D

Joking joking
I'll shower after this and head to bed. Try and get a good night's rest.
If i couldn't fall asleep or if i wake up at 4am again tomorrow morning, i'll then do some of my work =D

I took some cool pictures yesterday when i went shoe shopping, i needed a new pair of running shoes. Got myself a pair of nike free 7.0, and put it on the test straight away leter that day. Loving my new nike-s =D

Better start showering now, I miss you guys!
Love hugs and kisses!
daph
~*weak daphne day*~

frozen in time? i wish

Studied on 'Diseases of the adrenal gland' not too long ago.
Cushing's syndrome, Aldosteronism, and Addison's syndrome.
Learning on the surface is easy, but once i tried diving in a little deeper, everything got harder. But at the end it wasn't too bad. I would still have been studying instead of typing this entry, but it is just too cold for my brain to function.

It's 8 degrees now, and it may fall to 6 degrees minimum tonight. It's 8 and i'm already turning into a popsicle, what would happen when it drops to 6? Frostbites?

I'm so gonna bury myself underneath my nice warm quilt now. I can feel my fingers and toes slowly turning into ice...

Ciao
love hugs and kisses
-daph-

pseudo hiatus mode?

2nd year, 2nd sem...
Bigger, meaner and much much more demanding.

By the end of the day, it feels like i've been taking full blown punches right in my torso.
I could feel everything in me wanting to erupt out. Exhaustion dominates my entire system.
Once i reach home, i slump straight onto my bed, slowly breathing in and out as if i did not had the energy to breath.
But as i realize the time showing on my alarm clock, i had to drag myself off my beloved bed, and start doing everything i must.

It's only the third week and i'm showing prominent signs of fatigue. It seems as if i'm the shadow of my own shadow.
It's dark and mono.
Deprived from everything except uni workload.

In need of a spark.

I miss home, i miss my parents, i miss my friends.

It's been awhile since i updated my blog.
-Pseudo hiatus mode-

Love hugs and kisses
-not so nerdifi-ed-

'it' arrived brissy

It's 2153 Brisbane time now.
Sitting and staring blankly into the screen constantly pondering bout home.
I left home without my heart and soul.
Before i even left HOME, a rush of homesick blues came gushing through.
Holding back tears took every single strength i could muster.
I thought i had the strength in me to hold it back, but i underestimated my feelings, it was way more powerful.
Uber emo was what i was when i left my beloved home.
Saying goodbye and hugging my parents before i went through the gates was so difficult for me.
It killed and ripped my inside without mercy.
Am here now as an 'it'.

I freaking miss Home right now, i miss my parents, i miss all of u guys, i miss everything.

Uni starts tomorrow, hoping that god would give me the strength i need to get through my first day of a new semester.

*Pics would be uploaded soon
*016 number is alive and kicking

Off to 'flood' brizzy now.