Life

How would life be if i wasn't born on the 23rd of March 1988?
What if i died in my mother's womb?
All i ever 'saw' was the inside of a human body, which i think won't be too bad.
The world is a cruel cruel place to live, it gets even worse by the second, minute, hour, day, week, month, year, decade, century, it would never be like how it used to be, some even irreversible. Racism, poverty, cancer, AIDS, global warming, evil, domination, drugs, etc.
With my presents now in this century, would i make a difference? 'Even a small voice makes a huge difference.' Is that so?? How true could it be? All i see and hear is that when someone 'big' tries to help the world, it is then being heard by the world. It doesn't seems to me that much people care about what a 'nobody' do.
I do donate to people who seek for donations, i give as much as i can, and wish for the best for everyone hoping i could help at least one person, give them hope and a new light to look forward to. But they are people out there who takes advantage, they are no more than mere frauds, how cold could their heart be to ask for donations stating to help the poor, or help monks or children? but in fact the money they collect goes into their own pockets???!!! Bloody useless people, using names of other unprofitable organization to satisfy their own greed. They've got all their limbs intact, why can't they find for jobs like others? Ungrateful people, why bother giving them limbs at the first place? I bet they are tonnes of people out there who would appreciate a working limb. People who blind could even work, why couldn't they??
Mad world this is, greed swallows the good of a person if not controlled properly.
They are even people who acts as a monk and selling 'religious' stuff to citizen, claiming that the profit would help build a temple or help feed a group of monks/kids/homeless.
It makes me feel sick to the stomach.
There's a lot more going on on this world, so much wrongs, more than the good.
Some times i wonder how would life be if i weren't born, would i be an angel? A guardian angel to someone? An angel to protect and guide.
=D it's just all a dream, with all my sins that i've committed (dissecting animals, burning fuel, cutting down trees, etc), i don't think i would ever get the chance to own a pair of wings.
One day i really wish to help change the world or even change a person's life.
To all my beloved friends, if you would all agree, we shall try to establish an organization to help people who really need our help.
With our tiny voices we shall send the world a loud message.
If can lah :P