summer course

i thought i wanted to take my time through out my whole uni period,

but i've been doing some thinking about everything,
by sacrificing this summer holiday i could save a year of my life and also save a year of money. summer course is the ticket to enter straigh into second year of pharmacy.
it would be tougher, but it's hard to believe that i can't pull my weight through it.
i should believe in myself more even though it is a fact that i'm not as smart as others and am much more lazier than average people, but i don't think that i'm that terrible, and certainly don't think that i'm a failure.
but some times people encourage by saying, 'if you believe in yourself, anything is possible', or 'if there is a waill, there is a way', i try to believe in these sayings but not all the time things goes the way you want it to go. it's already written by the lord's hand. if it's meant to be, it's meant to be. fighting it would only makes things harder.
anyways, back to the main point,
i wanted to post this entry to tell you guys that there is a huge percentage that i won't be going back till next year's mid year holiday in june/july. summer course starts on the 29th of nov and ends on the 9th of feb.
won't be able to see you guys till next year T.T