Sunday, July 20, 2008

'it' arrived brissy

It's 2153 Brisbane time now.
Sitting and staring blankly into the screen constantly pondering bout home.
I left home without my heart and soul.
Before i even left HOME, a rush of homesick blues came gushing through.
Holding back tears took every single strength i could muster.
I thought i had the strength in me to hold it back, but i underestimated my feelings, it was way more powerful.
Uber emo was what i was when i left my beloved home.
Saying goodbye and hugging my parents before i went through the gates was so difficult for me.
It killed and ripped my inside without mercy.
Am here now as an 'it'.

I freaking miss Home right now, i miss my parents, i miss all of u guys, i miss everything.

Uni starts tomorrow, hoping that god would give me the strength i need to get through my first day of a new semester.

*Pics would be uploaded soon
*016 number is alive and kicking

Off to 'flood' brizzy now.

Friday, June 20, 2008

Finally done with exams..
Tears of joy =')

Thursday, June 19, 2008

sleepy -.=

It's 4.32 am now, and i'm still doing really last minute studying for my exam at 8am.
My heart is pounding faster than normal in it's cavity. It feels as if i'm about to experience tachycardia.
Blood flows away from my finger tips into my brain, when i close my eyes and truly concentrate i could feel it pulsating, could also hear my heart beating, 'lubdub, lubdub'.
The adrenaline rush i feel today is more than normal.
I wish i could sleep, but this is the price i have to pay for not studying for the past few days. I guess one never learns from their mistakes (eg. last minute studying).

I can't wait to get this over with and start packing my bags.

Would be back home soon!!

Love hugs and kisses
-daph-

Monday, June 16, 2008

missing heart

Yesterdays paper, BIOM2009, was a disaster for me.
It's one of those post exam paper feeling, where u come out of the lecture hall with your heart left at the seat.
It was horrible, i was struck by the fact that i'm a dumbo in this course/subject.
I was striped off from all hopes of even obtaining a decent mark for this paper.
All i wish and hope is to pass this course. I don't care about the gpa, i just want to pass. I need to pass.

Next paper would be PHRM2020, not an easy one. In fact it's another super duper hard one. It's more of a chemistry subject and i do not blend well with chemistry at all. We are immiscible.
I should start studying now, to avoid leaving my heart behind again.

Wishing and hoping for the best everyday.
Praying harder and harder by the minute.
Missing each and everyone of you by the second.

Seeing you guys in a few days!!

Love hugs and kisses
-daph-

Sunday, June 15, 2008

today. 16/6/08

I've got a BIOM2009 paper to sit at 8am.
And now, 6am, it's 9 degrees outside. It's freezing, and i'm feeling very reluctant to take a shower, but i need to take a shower to start my day fresh. My fingers are freezing and so is my booty.
Today's exam isn't an easy one, but i'm going to give it all i've got. No turning back, full speed ahead!!
This exam would be my 6th exam. Another 2 more on Friday and i would be free! Then i'll be home by Saturday!! =D

So tempted to go shopping after my paper, need to shop to relax.. Retail therapy!
But then, shopping when you are broke would induce more stress... Retail torture!

I can't decide if i should or shouldn't.
Very indecisive lately.

Love hugs and kisses
-daph-

not so nerdifi-ed

BIOM2009 aka Human Physiology & Pharmacology A I..
This course/subject is a pain in the arse... It's giving me a tension headache, and i'm very tempted to pick up a textbook and whack it on my head.
I'm trying to keep my mojo intake, staying tranquil.

Anyways, can't wait for another 6 more days!

Going to continue nerding now.

Love hugs and kisses
-not so nerdifi-ed-

Saturday, June 14, 2008

tagged!!

RULES:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.
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Starting time: 11.56pm
Name: Daphne
Sisters: o
Brothers: 1
Shoe size: 7 / 7.5
Height: 5'3? 5'4?
Where do you live: Currently: Toowong, Brisbane.
Home sweet home: Luyang, Kota Kinabalu, Sabah.
Favourite drinks: Coke zero! (chilled)
Favourite breakfast: Dim sum!

Have you ever...
Been on a plane: Yes
Swam in the ocean: Yes
Fallen asleep in school: Yes (known for it)
Broken someone's heart: Yes
Fell off your chair: yeah
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: no
Saved e-mails: nil

What is your room like: like a room?
What's right beside you: Bed =D
What is the last thing you ate: udon with fish tofu and thinly sliced pork

Ever had
Chicken pox: yes
Sore throat: Yes
Stitches: above my eyes and behind my ear.

Do you
Believe in love at first sight: yes
Like picnics: love it

Who was the last person
You danced with: my shadow and reflection
Last made you smile: sleep
You last yelled at: not been yelling

TODAY DID YOU...
Talk to someone you like: like? love?
Kissed anyone: Nope
Get sick: yeah, lack of sleep = sick everywhere
Talked to an ex: No
Miss someone: too sleepy and tired
Eat: lots

Best feeling in the world: REM sleep
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: all the time
What's under your bed: shoes, guitar bag, bags
Who do you really hate: don't think i really hate a person
What time is it now: 12.05 am

RANDOM.
Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now: no
Q: Do you have any siblings: Yes
Q: Do you want children: Yes
Q: Do you smile often: Yes
Q: Do you like your hand-writing: yup, uniquely me
Q: Are your toenails painted: no, where got time... exam period
Q: Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: do not like sleeping in other ppl's bed except mine..
Q: What colour shirt are you wearing: brown
Q: What were you doing at 7:00pm yesterday: dinner with wild boar =p
Q: I can't wait till: i'm back in malaysia
Q: When did you cry last: few days ago...
Q: Are you a friendly person: yeah
Q: Do you have any pets: i hope i still do.. terrapins! =D more than a dozen

Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
home?

Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?
no

Do you sleep with the TV on?
yeah, tv helps me sleep

What are you doing right now?
typing these very words...

Have you ever crawled through a window?
i think so

Can you handle the truth?
depending on wat truth

Are you too forgiving?
depending

Are you closer to your mother or father?
i dono....

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
jerry i think... wen the bus left us at westend

How many people can you say you've really loved?
infinity

Do you eat healthy?
chocolate and caffeine is good for the heart.. so yeah i eat healthy

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?
uhuh

Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?
wen i was young

How often do you go to church?
oni went to a church once or twice

If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?
friends, cousins

Are you loud or quiet most of the time?
loud =D

Are you confident?
depends on the situation and my condition

5 things I was doing 10 years ago..
1- watching and reading comic books (which i still do now)
2- playing ice and fire with my friends
3- playing with toys... and still am
4- eating a lollipop bigger than my face
5- cry when i don't get wat i want

5 things on my to-do list today
1- 2030 exam
2- nerd
3- sleep
4- eat
5- pang sai

5 snacks I enjoy
1- pocky sticks!
2- nuts
3- ceaser salad
4- crab crackers! (hv not had any for a yr! missing it...)
5- red rock deli honey and dijon mustard potato chips

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1- get myself a mini cooper, VW, jeep, hummer, ferrari spider, BMW 3 & 6 series and BENTLEY CONTINENTAL GT!
2- build my dream house
3- be a founder of a university
4- Get everything i always wanted
5- see wat i always wished to see


5 of my bad habits
1- binge on too much junkfood
2- bad circadian rhythm
3- lack of self discipline
4- drink too much coke
5- temper

5 places I have lived in
1- tenom (grandparent's crib, dad's side)
2- kudat (grandparent's crib, mom's side)
3- kota kinabalu, luyang
4- toowong, brisbane
5- no where else

5 jobs I've had
1- mommy's and daddy's angel
2- full time student
3- kitchen assistant
4- nerd
5- homosapien

YOU'VE BEEN TAGGED!
didi
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kim mah
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