.:opened and exposed:.

ciao

2009-08-30T01:53:00.000-07:00

This blog is dying...
I'm scrapping for time now, and none could be spent on this blog anymore..
Going hiatus for now till holiday strikes.

Take care ppl!
Love hugs and kisses

hey it's me again

2009-07-20T05:29:00.000-07:00

winter holidays are coming to an end
i'm really going to miss holidays
second sem uni commence next monday
and i'm not looking forward to it, cause we would dive straight into hardcore knowledge
it's kinda hard to feed something into something rusty (eg knowledge into brain that has not worked for a month)
my poor brain, it's not made for this
all i want to do is just lay on bed under my nice warm quilt and laze around and not think about anything
the ultimate ideal day for me (extremely unproductive at all)

after exams, a whole load of burden got lifted off
super uber relieved
but then the thought of results day hunted me every single second till the day i found out i passed all 6 courses (not with pretty, bright and shiny colors, but hell yeah i'm still happy and grateful)
at that time i was in sydney participating in the NCG '09
great fun i had
but i also fell sick and loss my voice
cough, flu and cold tormented me
played ping pong, futsal and basketball by the way and got second for all three games
after the games, stayed back a few days in sydney and paid my aunt a visit
but did not did anything for the first 2 days cause i got too sick i could not get out of bed
on the third and fourth day went out with my aunt and indulged in good food

got back to brisbane
slept and slept and slept as much as i could
cherishing every sleeping second i could grab onto as i know when uni starts, i would have to say bye bye to nice good sleeps
also been enjoying beetroot soup =D
spending time with my cousins
watching movies, eating nice tasty food
loitering around town
and i have been watching lots and lots of re-runs

tomorrow, gonna go to china town for cha sau and sau nyiuk rice =D
and for dinner, korean bbq may be on the menu =D
trying to enjoy as much as i could this holidays
haha like life would end tomorrow

-off to enjoy a hot bowl of beetroot soup-
have a great hols everyone

xoxo
take care
love hugs and kisses

my long lost twin Tweek

2009-06-20T07:14:00.000-07:00

after sitting for 4 major exam, and torturing the poor brain day after day... these few days before the next 3 other major exams to sit, it seems like i gave up all will to fight..

all i want is to close my eyes and lay in bed under my quilt, and let fantasy bring me away to a land free of worries, stress and pressure.

i'm having one of those lousy regretful thoughts...
"why in the world i choose to study this course?"
i know it's not something positive to do, but it just came to me
i know that i never did had the brains, will or guts to take up this course
and yet, why did i?
i'm having doubts, i'm underestimating my own abilities

i'm going crazy nuts
this is what stress does to me
i should be studying
but instead i'm blogging
channeling my stress?
doing something else should be helpful but instead sometimes i think it builds up more stress in me because i think that i'm wasting my time doing something else when i can use the time to study
@@ arghhhhhhhhhhh
i'm starting to turn into Tweek from southpark
(my caffeine consumption is way above the recommended levels)

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*don't laugh
i may be suicidal or facing depression or maybe OD-ing on caffeine
Or i might just be losing my mind?

haha jk jk
i'm neither of those
i'm still holding own, cracking my skull with books
now i'm starting to wonder how many hits (with a hardcover book) does it takes to cause a:
1) concussion
2) haemorrhage
3) skull to crack open
4) permanent damge
5) death

ahhh my morbid emo phase is kicking in...
and now i shall continue drowning myself in notes
soak till i prune up

pinkish daph

2009-05-17T03:58:00.001-07:00

been playing futsal and basketball... reminds me a lot of dd, van, ane and jen li a lot.
really miss u guys a lot.
can't wait for the day we could play sports together again

above is a fugly picture of me.
exhausted and tired and being burnt by the sun
see my cheeks, pink pink
nasib cannot see my panda eyes.
looking at the mirror scares the shit out of me

time flies faster than lightning
3 more weeks left in this semester T.T
then 1 week of SWOT vac
and then 7 exams to conquer

"i came i saw i conquer" shall be my drive to tackle all of this

not so nerdifi-ed tuen nerdifi-ed
take care guys!

xoxo
-daph-

exam fever~

2009-05-08T05:56:00.000-07:00

Exam timetable for the first semester just came out today...
15/6 PHRM3040
16/6 PHRM3010
17/6 BIOM3010
18/6 PHRM3050
22/6 PHRM3020
23/6 PHRM3030
24/6 PHRM3010 Oral

7 major final exams
none of these courses are elective, they are all major courses
hardcore courses
not macam makan kacang courses...
it is time to start burying my head deep into studies
full speed ahead!
well, knowing me, i'm bound to hit into a few bumps here and there =p

haiz... life of a uni student ={

Before the exam timetable came out, this whole week was a blast
monday - labour day = i love holz
tuesday - yogen fruz = yummy!
wednesday - netball under drizzling rain = brings back childhood memories (playing under the
rain)
thursday - hardcore netball with new Jordan 4 retro = new shoes, new blisters
friday - light badminton + netball = painful shins

After the exam timetable came out
mondays to sundays = nerd nerd nerd

the not so nerdified turns nerdified

-daph-
the nerdified

QSC

2009-04-26T05:33:00.000-07:00

This weekend i let my competitive side get the best of me.
I feel bad for letting things affect me.
It's a sports carnival, i should be playing for fun, well and also to win =p

Futsal game was awesome. Had the best futsal game experience ever. Made TWO lucky volley goals =D
A few of the guys changed my name to Daphne Dampard -.-''
Just wished i was a little fitter to block the shots made by the other teams to give Zu (our goalie) a hand.

Tennis too was great, but towards the end i let my anger and frustration go a little.. did not cared about the way i served, i just whacked the ball as hard as i could. Made super duper lots of mistakes... stupid ones... sad
Jerry, you are an awesome partner, would be your tennis partner anytime anywhere.

Netball!~
Yes, Daphne played netball =D
hehe
fouled thousands of time - very frustrating u know.....
And this was when i was super angry with the other team..
and i became cruel.. very cruel...
well i did not did anything to her.. but i kinda said a few stuff that i shouldn't... sorry =[
the competitive side of me conquered without mercy
need to win, must win, and we WON!
woots~! GO BLUE TEAM!

Basketball was the last game.
All of u who knows me since highschool would know that i enjoy basketball a lot and it is one of my favorite sports to play.
but today it pissed me off so bad i started to act up.
there wasn't any team in the team itself..
and this girl (girl y) was my main source of anger
we were initially in the same team (mix 3) but she changed to her original color team (yellow team), so she got another girl to sub her spot in the mix 3 team.
so girl x and i are the 2 girls in mix 3 team. i had to miss the first game cause i was sending an injured guy to the hospital and i came back in time to play the 2nd game, girl x puled a muscle so i had to play the whole game.
for this 2nd game, it was mix 3 against yellow team and we beat them, so we were heading into the semis. yellow did not
so in the semis girl y decided to join back mix 3 team... she wanted to play... so it was cool for me as i wouldn't be able to play the whole game, having a sub would be great. so she played the first half and the team agreed that i would play the 2nd... but at the end i was the 'best bench warmer' ever.
girl y didn't even asked if i wanted to play, she decided to play the whole game.
yups the bench was super warm
when it was time to decided 3rd and 4th placing, mix 3 was going against the black team, i bloody hell did not wanted to care anymore and just head off for the bbq with my friends.
yups, i went off without telling the 'team' anything
they pretty much did not needed me anyways, and girl y can play all she wants
great 'team'

anyways, it is all over
am super tired
i literally look like a panda
i've got dark circles around my eyes
my body aches
my head hurts
and i enjoyed QSC a lot

"Pepsi cola, 7up, rumah biru up, up, UP!"

oh, there is badminton again on the 23rd may. Tasia! lets fire up!

-daph-
xoxo

AMH+Ring+camera = Love for pharmacy or photography?

2009-04-16T05:35:00.000-07:00

life vs love

2009-04-15T08:54:00.000-07:00

We used to be yin and yang
till 'doomed' day arrived
by force, i was forbidden to ever love you again
but we often have affairs, mostly due to cravings
each affair is bound to shorten my life, by a second or a year, i can never tell
but i never did cared
i love you too much to push you out from my life
but for my own sake should this be a taboo?
life vs love

-daph-
(e+l+p)SL shoots up because of you

pseudo holiday

2009-04-13T04:29:00.000-07:00

easter hols
Holidays do not come very often at all for us
I was anticipating for holidays to come, and it has finally arrived, but nothing sucks more than realising that it is more like a pseudo holiday.
The amount of studying i have to do to get myself prepared for a mid sem BIOM exam is speechless. The load is lethal, it could pass as a euthanasia sentence but plus the extreme pain.

T.T

Holiday spent in front of notes and textbooks, and listening to lecture recordings.
One easy way to put a person into severe trauma. No fuss method.

This year would be hell, pure HELL
2 mid sems
2 assignments
6 subjects (1 of it i have no clue what the hell it is)
1 labeling exam
6 final written exam + 1 oral exam
30 to 40 hours of placement
10 logbooks
6 case studies
6 PHRM3020 pracs (5 of them compounding)
6 BIOM pracs + CALs
+++ there are some more stuff, but since my brain has already slightly degenerated from all the studying, can't remember everything =p

touch wood, so do not want my brain to degenerate..... choi choi choi!~~

stressssss stressssssss
before i sink into depression, i'm gonna hide everything and anything that may be a potential wrist slitter.
Just for safety precaution
I wanna live long =P

-daph-
not a wrist slitter

swoosh

2009-04-06T05:48:00.000-07:00

" Life is going too fast for me, am taking a break by the sideline just for a moment. As i am ready to dip back into the fast lane, i need to go faster than before to catch up what passed by me and to regain my number one spot."
-Daph, 6/4/09-
tired, exhausted, and eating salad this very moment

A +

2009-04-04T01:28:00.000-07:00

Am an official Australian Blood Donor =D
but not a Malaysian blood donor despite my nationality +.="

Donated blood for the very first time on the 18th of March, a few days before my birthday.
Did not donated in conjunction of my birthday but because the blood donating mobile parked right in front of my apartment's entrance, and since i had a 4 hour break, why not do some good and save 3 lives?
And so i decided to donate 470ml of my blood =D

Proud of me?
=p

family and homesick

2009-03-23T04:50:00.000-07:00

it is today, but it doesn't feel like it is suppose to be
i thought i could hold on till the end of the day, but i was pulled down by more than gravity when my X and X donors called me a couple of minutes ago.
it hurts badly
i cried myself a river
a river i gave myself
not much of a day to remember
i try so hard to pull myself above water, but it seems as if i'm drowning in mercury instead
i feel my heart compress
i feel it hurt
i feel it fall into darkness
am more than crashed and burnt

for what i'm feeling right now is due to 'family' loneliness
i can't emphasis how important family is to me
i need them
i need them
i need them
a month away and i'm already depressed

-depressed daph-

i 'm very grateful for my friends around me
i can't thank you guys anymore for what you guys have done
thank you once again
xoxo

11.41am Fri 20th march

2009-03-19T18:36:00.000-07:00

Hey hey hey

Updating specially for Zarifah =D

A few minutes ago she totally embarrassed herself when she logged into her friend's blog.
As she entered, the song 'Me so horny' came blasting out!!!!!!!
Everyone at the ilc room started laughing and rachel and i decided to distance ourselves.
Terus lupa kawan-ship =p

There you go, short update dedicated to za.

Me, mua and more of ME&MUA

2009-03-11T04:24:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone!

Today, my whole digestive system decided to fall sick and burst like high pressured pipes.

DIARRHOEA!

Deadliest thing to have and experience. Thank lord it did not act up till i reached home.
God Bless you (bowels).

On top of diarrhoe, i woke up with a hypo, sore back muscles and also a gastric.
Signs of falling sick? or symptoms of a sickness?
meh...

My latest addiction (No dd, it's not porn), tomato and carrot soup with pork and mushroom meatball!
The simplest thing to cook and you may eat it with rice/mee/meehoon/udon/on its own.
Sedap tau!

Ta-Daa~~~ inilah masakan Daphne =p
Sup tomato dengan lobak merah, bebola daging dengan cendawan dan mi udon.
'Fast to cook, delicious to eat'

Picture i took to try and capture the sun set.
Not much of a success. Sun long gone, could only see its rays.

Another picture of the sun i took from below.
Randomly snapped anything i could, didn't knew what i was actually capturing as i was not able to look up... Blinding sun

ladididada

2009-03-10T07:18:00.000-07:00

ahhh i've neglected my blog for months, fear not, i'm back now!~

my blog, my sanctuary?
it's only the starting of a new week and lots have happened.

Sunday, i started my week by cleaning my study table and also cleaning my computer mouse and keyboard. Hoping that by changing the aura i would be able to change my feng shui and also my will to study. Looked through a few uni stuff, took a nap and watched Hellboy on dvd. Ate cereal for breakfast, cooked my own lunch and had dinner at my cousin's place. Watched series at night before bedtime.

Monday, woke up around 9am, had cereal for breakfast. Prepared for uni, went to uni at 12. Skipped 4pm lecture to go home and get ready for Coldplay concert.
Went to the Brisbane Entertainment Center (BEC). Bought the wrong ticket cause i mistaken Entertainment for Convention.. Totally different places, but the conductor was kind enough to change my ticket without any extra charges. Reached BEC early so that we could get ourselves some merchandise. Bought myself 2 Coldplay concert t-shirts!
Concert was SUPERBLY AWESOME.
After the concert, caught the 11.50pm train to the city, ate dinner/supper at Azra Kebab..
Took the cab home, reached home around 1.20am... Printed notes, shower, etc... slept around 3am...

Tuesday, skipped tutorials (too tired).. woke up around 9am, got ready, cooked lunch, ate lunch, shower, change into placement clothes, head to uni at 12.30pm.
Finished uni at 2pm and head to my placement site at the city straight.
Started placement at 2.30 to 5.30pm... Waited for za to finish hers at 6pm. Waited for the bus home, reached home about 6.45pm. Changed clothes and headed straight to cousin's place for dinner. Came home around 8pm, started doing uni work till 12am...

Wednesday, 12.33am - typing an entry that you would most probably not bother to read.. >.<

Like i said, my blog my sanctuary.. sanctuary to freely pour out anything that pops in my head.

i'm hungry, tired and sleep

i miss you guys

i miss
- dd's gatalness
- laine's craziness
- wennie's kaki wennie
- diane's geekiness
- matt's ability to turn everything into 'kuning'
- van's presence
- marz's tennis
- jenli's buddy-ness
- basically everyone..
and luk luk.... =p

-off to bed now, uni at 9 T.T-

love hugs and kisses

kk

2008-12-23T10:25:00.001-08:00

Came back on the 19th dec, approximately 1.30am in the morning.
My flight back wasn't pleasant at all, experienced air sickness. Should have gotten some Travelcalm(right product name or not, i don't rememeber) from the pharmacy.
Oh yeah, i was suppose to fly off from brisbane at 11.20am but it got rescheduled to 6.00pm. It sucked big time.

Anyways, been back for 5 days already. Time flies 'zoom zoom'.
Done quite a number of stuff, and also sweat a whole load of sweat.
Can't wait to do more stuff and eat more stuff and see more people.

Christmas is just around the corner, wishing you all an early merry christmas.

Don't think i would be updating much while i'm back.

xxoo
-daph-

ultimate laziness

2008-12-17T11:17:00.000-08:00

woke up really early today, 5.18am
tummy infiltrated by killer butterflies
feel my gut being ripped inside out
churn churn churn
poor stomach going overdrive, sphincter unable to stand the pressure anymore
feels like barfing my internals out

gonna head to somewhere later on today
somewhere 'rural'
it's kinda a mini holiday with my friends
go see, look, experience
have fun
maybe go dipping in some sea to brush of the heat
definitely going to go hunt for food that they are famous for

so whilst on my trip
i doubt that i would be able to post any updates for a 'couple' of days

i'm officially going hiatus
would prob update a quickie whenever i'm able to do a quickie
and my next post would prob be next year

xoxo

daph
-tummy still hurts, zzz-

Daph loves to cook

2008-12-08T05:48:00.000-08:00

I love holidays, gives me the chance to enjoy cooking =D
Ever since i came to Brisbane, i'm starting to love cooking a lot, but i never do have the time to actually enjoy it.
Time is always chasing behind me.

Cooked steak with roast carrots for dinner today.
It's not always tat i get the chance to enjoy a piece of steak that has been well marinated.

Ta-daa!!
Well it probably doesn't look as nice as those served at restaurants....
but it shall one day!

xoxo

-daph-
i love to cook!

Porsche Design P'9120

2008-12-07T17:12:00.000-08:00

Porsche Design Stereo System with ipod dock by Eton.....
Extremely cool leh! I want!

summer cleaning

2008-12-07T06:12:00.000-08:00

Decided to tie up all my 2008 notes to keep my room tidy and 'organized'.
Hopefully i won't need to dig it out again for my upcoming years in pharmacy course.
Done tidying up and now there is a whole stack of papers sitting right next to me.
Mini tower of something.

Stacked it all up and measured it.
29cm tall!
It was too heavy for me to weight it... Feeling tired and lazy to go get a scale and weight.

The stack compared to a nokia n70
Almost 3 times the height of my n70

Another picture from a different angle.

Most of my money is in this stack of paper.
Paper, printer ink, pen ink, electric, man power, internet d/l quota, staples, binders, paper clips, plastic sleeves, blood and sweat.
No wonder i am always broke T.T

Scary or not?
I bet next year's stack would be taller.

071206 seventh

2008-12-06T21:44:00.000-08:00

Its the seventh day of summer today, and it is 31 degrees. Literally being roasted alive.

Despite the blazing hot weather, i woke up with a smile on my face today.
Had the sudden burst of urge to cook something different for myself for brunch.
*Well actually i wanted to save money by eating in =p

Been reading a couple of recipes from the net, steal some ideas and gain some inspiration.
So today i decided try out one of the recipes; okonomiyaki =D
Well the okonomiyaki i cooked did not turned out as pretty as the picture above (stole from google image), but it was delicious!
Not easy to flip the okonomiyaki around without breaking it into several pieces.

While enjoying my okonomiyaki, i decided to sit back, relax and enjoy a dvd; Things we lost in the fire.

AWESOME movie!
If u have not watched it yet, get off your butt and go get the dvd!

Not going to post any spoilers =p
You should seriously go and watch it yourself.

Anyways ^^''
The reason why i loved this movie so much is because it helped me understand more about heroin addiction, relapse, and the importance of support.
Studied it this semester but it was so abstract.
I know the facts, but not know what is actually happening real life.
So this movie really opened my eyes.

xxoo

-daph-
being inspired by recipes

2008-12-01T04:51:00.000-08:00

=D
Daphne is seeing light again!
Thanks lady luck for being by my side.

2008-11-30T06:43:00.000-08:00

Placement hunting is seriously a pain in the arse.
Up and down, near and far i search for a pharmacy that would take me in, and teach me.
Before i enter, i enter with high hopes and confident, but when i exit, i exit with sadness and crushed hopes.
It is hard and tough, harder and tougher than exams.
All i want to do it sit on a rock at the corner and cry my eyes out.
It is just so tiring and disappointing, no light is ever in sight.

The only day i start seeing light again is when i know that someone has taken me in and willing to teach me.

Going to try my luck again tomorrow.
Oh lady luck, please be with me.

-daph-
sick and tired

wonder ponder

2008-11-24T21:08:00.000-08:00

if i could just turn back time and not taken it lightly
i won't be in this very spot now
should i regret and whine about it? or should i take it as a lesson
i know that i won't learn from my mistakes, that is how stubborn i am
and i know regretting over it is just not me

i guess i would have to face it, full steam ahead on a white horse in shinning armor

hols

2008-11-18T04:09:00.000-08:00

I'm officially enjoying my holidays to the max.
Loving the nice and cool weather, but not particularly in love with the rain.

Shopping shopping shopping
It's what every girl does best =D

Bough a new pair of converse, a pair of sun glasses, and new clothes.

Can't wait to do more shopping!

oral exam

2008-11-13T07:59:00.000-08:00

It's 2am 14th of November now, and at 9am, i would be having my oral exam.

I am going to do some really last minute studying in a couple of minutes and then head to bed.
I had 7 freaking exams already and drive has been squeezed dry out of my system.
There isn't an inch of motivation left.

I just can wait to get it done and over with. After tomorrow's exam, i am free!
Well, free till result's day, aka, JUDGMENT DAY.
More like DOOMS DAY or DIE DAY for me.

oh wells, better start studying for my oral exam now.

Love hugs and kisses

-daph-
sitting for oral exam in a dead condition

all steam ahead

2008-11-09T02:48:00.000-08:00

PHRM2041 (Drug Discovery A2) tomorrow 10/11/08 at 1115hour

Initially i planned to study diligently for the whole day...
But knowing me, great procrastinator, i delayed and delayed and delayed till 9pm.
And i'm not even studying just yet... instead i'm blogging.

*round of applause*

I guess i would be pulling another all nighter tonight.
Burning the midnight oil. Hopefully i won't die due to too much carbon monoxide through inhalation.
touch wood touch wood

Whipped out a can of redbull, and ready to start my V12 engine soon.
Wish me luck! and pray for me!

ladididada

-daph-
GMBATEH

jog jog till really half dead

2008-11-07T13:40:00.000-08:00

Let me teach you guys a valuable lesson, k?

Never ever go and jog full speed right after pulling an all nighter.

Yes, i stupidly did it without realizing its consequences.

For the past 1.5 months, i have not had any adequate sleep yet.
Been taking excessive amounts of caffeine, till there are a few noticeable changes, but its not a concern.

Anyways, back to me being stupid...

My mom went to the market with my uncle, and i decided to jog my heart out, hoping to get the adrenaline rush i was seeking for to keep me awake.
With the endogenous adrenaline i would be able to last through my exam paper later at 11.15am to 1.15pm without the need of caffeine.
But..... without thinking about the outcome, i rather do a little experiment and observe and experience the outcome myself.
Bravo to me!
Instantly i felt unwell after hitting the 500m mark. I could feel my whole system shaking and in desperate need of oxygen.
If i ran an extra 10m, i would have experience lactic acidosis =p jk jk

Once i felt unwell, i slowed down, and tried catching my breath.
Decided to stop.
Even after 30mins, i'm still shaking a little. Breathing and heart rate have not returned to normal yet.
Feeling a little nauseas and dizzy.

My body is trying to knock some sense into me -> "You dumbwitt idiot, stop putting me under soooooo muchhhhhh stressssss!!~~"

Well i learned my lesson.
I'm plain human.

-daph-
psychotic me

crack like an egg

2008-11-07T09:21:00.000-08:00

Noyes-whitney, Fick's Law, intraparticulate, interparticulate, true density, bulk density, granule density, total porosity, cube root law, stoke's law, powder, particle, feret's diameter, martin's diameter, projected area diameter, first order kinetics, zero order kinetics, suspension, , half life, shelf life, psuedo kinetics, crystalline, unit cells, polymorphism, sedimentation, caking, emulsion, table die, flow, excipients, magnesium stearate........ etc etc etc

Been studying and studying and studying.....
It never seem to end

I'm scared about tomorrow's paper.
Every time i think about it, i could feel everything churn in me.
It gives me shivers down my spine.

I fear that i won't do well.

My heart pounds harder than a tiger pounds its preys

I'm practically going crazy over pharmacy.

I'm stressed out, and i'm not coping well.
I don't deal well with stress. Who does?

I should be studying instead of blogging now, but i'm experiencing a temporary mental block out.

Have you ever recorded what you feel when all of a sudden your brain seize due to the amount of studying? This is what i felt -

My heart rate increased dramatically
I felt extremely restless
I felt as if i would burst into tears
I felt angry too at the same time
I want to let it out, it has to come out, but what should be released?
I want to continue studying, but something is holding me back, its demanding me not to
All of a sudden it felt as if my blood pressure dropped
Feeling dizzy and having blurred vision
I stop and took a deep breath to clear my mind
Trying to bring myself back

Once succeeded to step back on the plate
The momentum to study has gone
But it has to be built up as quick as possible, there is no time.

-daph-
buried under notes accompanied by stress
'it's only a matter of time till i self-destruct'

maxE

2008-11-04T19:47:00.000-08:00

How many countries can you name?
I got addicted playing this simple game, and i'm not that good at it. My best was 63 countries (after numeral times), first time i played i only scored 45 =(

It is 1.49pm now and i have a paper to sit at 2.30pm, and i'm sitting in front of my com blogging.

All i wanna do now is sleep. It's raining, it's nice and cold, the perfect weather to nap. But darn it, there is a paper waiting for me to conquer.

US presidential election is still going on, and i'm hopping for Obama to win. If he wins he would be the first black american to win, and this would change the world a lot. Hopefully it would change my country, change the way people think.

'Some people think so tight that they suffer from migraine 24-7.'

Can't wait to get exams done and over with.

-daph-
exam hater

brain brain u look like walnut

2008-11-02T16:09:00.000-08:00

How?
Exam at 11.15am, now 10.09am.. And i'm blogging...

Nerves twirl and swirl inside me, making funny sensations.

Feeling so sleepy and tired.
Did not had enough sleep not because i stayed up all night studying, but i blame it all on my brain.

Why does my brain has to keep on working?
I planned to sleep at 12am, but at the end i slept at 2am.
Brain was restless, i switched it off, but it had its back-up generator.
So it went on running till no power was left.

See now, brain used up all the power, no more power left.
How to go for "WAR"?

Tsk tsk
Anyways, i still love u brain.
Make sure can work efficiently ah, and pour out all the embedded information.

-daph-
getting ready for paper number 1

Arthropoda

2008-10-31T05:54:00.000-07:00

Try and count how many legs does this spider has.

Half less than a normal spider do!~

never ending love

2008-10-30T09:06:00.000-07:00

By my side you stayed with me, day after day.

I start off most days with your companionship.

And i retire after 'tasting you'.

You fill me with warmth when i am cold inside, and when i need to chill you fill me with all the coolness i need.

You never failed to pull me up whenever i am slipping.

You were always there for me, without fail.

You are the reason for everything that happens in my life.

I'm starting to depend on you.

I'm addicted to you.

Without you, the only thing i experience are withdrawal symptoms.

There is no cure for my addiction.

This is how badly i need you, day and night.

If i could, i would inject you straight into my system intravenously.

I love you.

You are my saviour, you are my soul.

Oh my beloved coffee (caffeine), how could i live without you?!

-daph-
coffee my mate

=.+

2008-10-29T20:55:00.000-07:00

I can hear the clock tick... tick... tick... every single second

But how could a digital clock tick?

Hallucinations?

Schizophrenia?

Stress induced schizophrenia? or stress induced depression?

My best guess is that i am bullshitting awfully a lot due to stress.
Best way to de-stress now is to bang my head hard on anything and everything in sight.
'Desperate times, desperate measures'

-daph-
bandaged head

2008-10-29T05:55:00.000-07:00

4am sleep
12pm wake up
12.30pm lunch
2pm study
7pm dinner
11pm study
4am sleep

That is what i do everyday.

Can't wait for all of this to be over with. I need FUN, i need a LIFE!

pre-exam paranoia

2008-10-15T05:46:00.000-07:00

I've been wanting to buy this very headphone by Bose for ages, but for some reason, lady luck is always wondering off salivating over the participants on Manhunt.
I get all excited whenever i see this very model being displayed for demo at stores, and i'll ask the sales people if there is one in stock, but it's always out of stock.
So today, for some reason, i decided to drop by NextByte (Apple shop) located on campus. Browsing around with one of my friend, the new nano caught our attention at first, but as i turned around, *WHAM* instantly it attracted me like a black hole.

Well actually kan....
i was thinking of getting a new nano bah that.... to motivate me with my studies =D
but but but.... new headphones were better!
*DUBS DUBS DUBS* blasting music into my ears is way way more therapeutic.
Agree??

-daph-
ears being 'pampered' with music

Daph killed BIOM

2008-10-10T06:52:00.001-07:00

Did most of my assignment till 5.30am this morning.
Got some sleep then head to uni at around 10am, had a 11am tutorial.
Finished early, came home, went out with mom, napped from 5pm to 7pm.

Dinner, tv and then back to assignments at 8/9pm.
Officially finished BIOM assignment at 11.45pm.

-daph-
killed BIOM

uppie-datie

2008-10-08T07:36:00.000-07:00

Updated picture of how i look today (9/10/2008, 0038hours)

Can see eye bags forming liau!! O.o

-daph-

panda metamorphosis

2008-10-06T08:09:00.000-07:00

Look alike mah???
Well maybe not yet, but in this few weeks till exam ends, my formation into a panda (with extra prominent dark circles) would complete O.O

-daph-
*killed by BIOM2010 male impotence assignment*

KITKAT

2008-10-01T06:21:00.000-07:00

Ate a whole bar of Kit Kat, scrumptiously delicious.
Then i remembered about the china milk scandal! DAMN F***, did i just OD myself with malamine? Kidney stones here i come!
*CHOI CHOI* Touches wood and worship it hardcore!

Anyways, 22 people are arrested, but how many infants out there are hanging on for their lives? How many parents being slashed alive knowing that their one and only child is in danger??

Round of applause to 'YOU' people.

Oh, and for the record, the Kit k=Kat i just consumed is made in Australia. So i guess it's safe?
And i just realised on the back of the package it has a Halal chop =D
Save for Muslims to eat, YAY!
-not being sarcastic or a racist ah-

Kit Kat, i love you so much that it kills me. All the exercise i have just done today is literally being flushed down the toilet =|
Oh wells i can't blame you for being sexiliciously succulent
*slurpz & smacks*

HOLS HOLS HOLS

2008-09-28T01:02:00.000-07:00

Floor at Merlo's.
While waiting for my coffee, i looked down and can't help myself but to snap a pic.
I love my red converse (i love all my converse).
Love my shadow and the ground too.

On my way to Merlo's i thought it would be cool to snap a few pics of my uni.
This is the Law building (Forgan Smith building), they've got mini gargoyles (too small to see).
I loved how the sun 'posed ' for me.

Had lunch with a few of my friends before we head to the library to finish up our pre-tuts..
Oral contraceptive pills are the hardest to understand, but thanks to tuts, we got our heads around it.
Need advice? I'm your woman!

We love tuts and we really enjoy it.. and my friends and i love to 'monkey' around..
They wrote and stuck all this stickers on me..
i doubt anyone can swallow me whole (except pythons)
me yum yum? SO TRUE!
Keep frozen, a must! I melt in hot weather = Yuck Yuck

Holidays officially started for me yesterday!
I could jump over the moon a few million times.

Spring has started and the weather is getting warm (more like too hot for me). I miss winter, i love the cold. I'm more of a winter person =D (hence 'keep frozen')

I realized that i've grew fonder towards photography... I want a DSLR camera...
I got my eye on the new EOS450D but it cost too much T.T
All i have now is my N95 -.-''
LOL
anyone wanna donate me some *ka-chings?
I accept all major credit cards, cheque, cash and direct debit.

-daph-

2008-09-22T06:32:00.000-07:00

Stop and look.
Look at everyone around you.
Look at everything you have.

Isn't it enough?
Knowing you it's never enough...
But when is enough, enough for you?
Some people do not even have anything, all they have are things/stuff they never wished for.
You do not know the value of anything and everything.

Do not say that i do not know anything because I'm younger then you, because I dare say that I do know more than you.
You think that I'm constantly under my shell, being ignorant towards everything happening out there, this only shows that you were the one 'snuggling' in your blind bubble cause you did not saw anything happening, you even missed everything that happened in front of you. You think everything runs your way, everything has to work based in your 'theory'.

WAKE UP DUDE! You did not created this world, you do not have the power to say anything and everything you want.
Open your senses and except others.

You think that you are the only important thing is this world and every has to revolve around you.
Everyone has to adjust to your liking.
When you don't get thinks done your way you throw a fit or a tantrum.
And now you want to give up because you do not like the things happening in your life.

It seems as if you are a 'never ending apocalypse', how long do i have to wait till it ends?
Or do i have to wait till a lot of them have to be sacrifice before the 'day of awakening' arrives?

Random pics

2008-09-22T05:53:00.000-07:00

an entry b4 entering Hiatus mode

2008-08-31T01:57:00.000-07:00

This couple of weeks has been a real ride for me.

Been emotionally affected by the PHRM2010 lecture series.
Every word that relates to me i could feel it.
Never ever a pleasant feeling, it's just one of those things that wouldn't turn nice no matter how hard i pray.
I tend to shelter it from everyone, don't blame me but it's just something that i do not want to share.
Don't ask me what is it that i keep so tightly bound in me, all i'll say is nothing.

Had one day packed with fun, but i was totally dried up towards the end of the day.
For the first time in my life, i played netball!
And i did not sucked that much =D
It was tiring, and the only downside was that on the day we played, it was the hottest day ever! The sun was blazing HOT! It burn right through my skin... now i've got rosy-cheeks, which hurts a lot!
As most of you know already, i hate sunburns!!!!
Sadly i did not applied my layers of sunblock because i never did had to during the winter period.
After netball, which ended around 1pm, the malaysian society organized a bbq lunch.

My friends and i headed home after that to get ready for riverfest.
Riverfest was awesome as usual =D
Fireworks plus the jet? (those planes which army uses for battle, yang got api keluar from the exhaust pipe? (got kah on jet?) to make them go faster).
It was plain awesome.

After it ended, we headed to the city looking for dinner. Looking for a place to eat was HARD! But we managed to find some food at Little Singapore. Food was alright, so was the price. Had Prawn mee, which was no where as nice as Olde Town? or was it the other shop yg Laine tidak suka? I lupa lah nama kedai tu.

Took the bus home and reached home around 11? 12?
Head straight to bed.

Love hugs and kisses,
-daph with rosy-cheeks due to sunburns-

HIATUS MODE!
-sorry kim, i've not had the chance to complete the tag.
-sorry guys, i said early that i would post some pics up, but time constriction issue.

Am i an insomniac?

2008-08-19T05:18:00.000-07:00

Not much stuff happening lately, except for the overly gruesome uni workload.

Today is the 5th day that i woke up at 4am in the morning automatically, with only 4 hours of sleep each day is not enough to keep me alive and kicking throughout the whole day.

This morning i decided to dose myself with caffeine as it would a be a long day for me (lecture from 9-12, placement from 12.30 to 4.30). It's been quite a while since i took coffee in the morning (used to take a cup of coffee everyday last semester), and I have never experienced hyperactivity from caffeine before. First 2 hours of the lecture i felt normal, till the third hour when i started feeling a little agitated. I had a hard time concentrating and i could not sit still, my hands were sweating and shaking unconsciously. My heart started to beat faster, and it was as if it was beating outside it's cavity.

I started to feel sick, i just wanted to head home and bury myself into a deep sleep.
But i couldn't miss this placement or i would have to replace it on another day, which i do not have that extra day. I tried drinking more water to help lower down the blood concentration of caffeine, which did helped a lot (thank you chem/pharm).

I had something to fill my tummy before heading to the pharmacy to do my placement, practically had to drag myself into the pharmacy.
Throughout the whole 4 hours placement session, i could feel every single drip of energy leaking out of me like a busted gas tank; i felt like superman being affected by kryptonite.
I survived the 4 hour session, and barely hanging on, i was walking on jello.

On the bus i was pondering why is today 'weak daphne day'.
How 'd-ooh' could i be?
No duh it is 'weak daphne day', i have not been getting the sleep i need to rest my body efficiently.

Had a huge dinner today, pho, delicious! and stomach satisfying.
My bro, a friend and I decided to have a look at an asian supermarket, and see what junkfood we could purchase to gorge on =D
Walking through the aisle, all of a sudden my heart wasn't feeling well.. I could feel my beat and heart rate going wild, my veins were pumping with blood, my pulse was pulsating like mad.
It is how my body is trying to shout and grab my attention, "You bloody hell need to rest! ASAP! PRONTO!"

I should be getting some rest now, but i just finished printing out my notes and which i still have not looked through yet. I've got an assignment to do, and i have not taken my shower yet. And also i needed to post this entry before i continue killing myself silently =D

Joking joking
I'll shower after this and head to bed. Try and get a good night's rest.
If i couldn't fall asleep or if i wake up at 4am again tomorrow morning, i'll then do some of my work =D

I took some cool pictures yesterday when i went shoe shopping, i needed a new pair of running shoes. Got myself a pair of nike free 7.0, and put it on the test straight away leter that day. Loving my new nike-s =D

Better start showering now, I miss you guys!
Love hugs and kisses!
daph
~*weak daphne day*~

frozen in time? i wish

2008-08-09T08:04:00.000-07:00

Studied on 'Diseases of the adrenal gland' not too long ago.
Cushing's syndrome, Aldosteronism, and Addison's syndrome.
Learning on the surface is easy, but once i tried diving in a little deeper, everything got harder. But at the end it wasn't too bad. I would still have been studying instead of typing this entry, but it is just too cold for my brain to function.

It's 8 degrees now, and it may fall to 6 degrees minimum tonight. It's 8 and i'm already turning into a popsicle, what would happen when it drops to 6? Frostbites?

I'm so gonna bury myself underneath my nice warm quilt now. I can feel my fingers and toes slowly turning into ice...

Ciao
love hugs and kisses
-daph-

pseudo hiatus mode?

2008-08-04T07:57:00.000-07:00

2nd year, 2nd sem...
Bigger, meaner and much much more demanding.

By the end of the day, it feels like i've been taking full blown punches right in my torso.
I could feel everything in me wanting to erupt out. Exhaustion dominates my entire system.
Once i reach home, i slump straight onto my bed, slowly breathing in and out as if i did not had the energy to breath.
But as i realize the time showing on my alarm clock, i had to drag myself off my beloved bed, and start doing everything i must.

It's only the third week and i'm showing prominent signs of fatigue. It seems as if i'm the shadow of my own shadow.
It's dark and mono.
Deprived from everything except uni workload.

In need of a spark.

I miss home, i miss my parents, i miss my friends.

It's been awhile since i updated my blog.
-Pseudo hiatus mode-

Love hugs and kisses
-not so nerdifi-ed-

'it' arrived brissy

2008-07-20T04:52:00.000-07:00

It's 2153 Brisbane time now.
Sitting and staring blankly into the screen constantly pondering bout home.
I left home without my heart and soul.
Before i even left HOME, a rush of homesick blues came gushing through.
Holding back tears took every single strength i could muster.
I thought i had the strength in me to hold it back, but i underestimated my feelings, it was way more powerful.
Uber emo was what i was when i left my beloved home.
Saying goodbye and hugging my parents before i went through the gates was so difficult for me.
It killed and ripped my inside without mercy.
Am here now as an 'it'.

I freaking miss Home right now, i miss my parents, i miss all of u guys, i miss everything.

Uni starts tomorrow, hoping that god would give me the strength i need to get through my first day of a new semester.

*Pics would be uploaded soon
*016 number is alive and kicking

Off to 'flood' brizzy now.

2008-06-20T08:16:00.000-07:00

Finally done with exams..
Tears of joy =')

sleepy -.=

2008-06-19T11:32:00.000-07:00

It's 4.32 am now, and i'm still doing really last minute studying for my exam at 8am.
My heart is pounding faster than normal in it's cavity. It feels as if i'm about to experience tachycardia.
Blood flows away from my finger tips into my brain, when i close my eyes and truly concentrate i could feel it pulsating, could also hear my heart beating, 'lubdub, lubdub'.
The adrenaline rush i feel today is more than normal.
I wish i could sleep, but this is the price i have to pay for not studying for the past few days. I guess one never learns from their mistakes (eg. last minute studying).

I can't wait to get this over with and start packing my bags.

Would be back home soon!!

Love hugs and kisses
-daph-

missing heart

2008-06-16T18:59:00.000-07:00

Yesterdays paper, BIOM2009, was a disaster for me.
It's one of those post exam paper feeling, where u come out of the lecture hall with your heart left at the seat.
It was horrible, i was struck by the fact that i'm a dumbo in this course/subject.
I was striped off from all hopes of even obtaining a decent mark for this paper.
All i wish and hope is to pass this course. I don't care about the gpa, i just want to pass. I need to pass.

Next paper would be PHRM2020, not an easy one. In fact it's another super duper hard one. It's more of a chemistry subject and i do not blend well with chemistry at all. We are immiscible.
I should start studying now, to avoid leaving my heart behind again.

Wishing and hoping for the best everyday.
Praying harder and harder by the minute.
Missing each and everyone of you by the second.

Seeing you guys in a few days!!

Love hugs and kisses
-daph-

today. 16/6/08

2008-06-15T12:56:00.000-07:00

I've got a BIOM2009 paper to sit at 8am.
And now, 6am, it's 9 degrees outside. It's freezing, and i'm feeling very reluctant to take a shower, but i need to take a shower to start my day fresh. My fingers are freezing and so is my booty.
Today's exam isn't an easy one, but i'm going to give it all i've got. No turning back, full speed ahead!!
This exam would be my 6th exam. Another 2 more on Friday and i would be free! Then i'll be home by Saturday!! =D

So tempted to go shopping after my paper, need to shop to relax.. Retail therapy!
But then, shopping when you are broke would induce more stress... Retail torture!

I can't decide if i should or shouldn't.
Very indecisive lately.

Love hugs and kisses
-daph-

not so nerdifi-ed

2008-06-15T02:28:00.000-07:00

BIOM2009 aka Human Physiology & Pharmacology A I..
This course/subject is a pain in the arse... It's giving me a tension headache, and i'm very tempted to pick up a textbook and whack it on my head.
I'm trying to keep my mojo intake, staying tranquil.

Anyways, can't wait for another 6 more days!

Going to continue nerding now.

Love hugs and kisses
-not so nerdifi-ed-

tagged!!

2008-06-14T06:55:00.000-07:00

RULES:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.
***

Starting time: 11.56pm
Name: Daphne
Sisters: o
Brothers: 1
Shoe size: 7 / 7.5
Height: 5'3? 5'4?
Where do you live: Currently: Toowong, Brisbane.
Home sweet home: Luyang, Kota Kinabalu, Sabah.
Favourite drinks: Coke zero! (chilled)
Favourite breakfast: Dim sum!

Have you ever...
Been on a plane: Yes
Swam in the ocean: Yes
Fallen asleep in school: Yes (known for it)
Broken someone's heart: Yes
Fell off your chair: yeah
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: no
Saved e-mails: nil

What is your room like: like a room?
What's right beside you: Bed =D
What is the last thing you ate: udon with fish tofu and thinly sliced pork

Ever had
Chicken pox: yes
Sore throat: Yes
Stitches: above my eyes and behind my ear.

Do you
Believe in love at first sight: yes
Like picnics: love it

Who was the last person
You danced with: my shadow and reflection
Last made you smile: sleep
You last yelled at: not been yelling

TODAY DID YOU...
Talk to someone you like: like? love?
Kissed anyone: Nope
Get sick: yeah, lack of sleep = sick everywhere
Talked to an ex: No
Miss someone: too sleepy and tired
Eat: lots

Best feeling in the world: REM sleep
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: all the time
What's under your bed: shoes, guitar bag, bags
Who do you really hate: don't think i really hate a person
What time is it now: 12.05 am

RANDOM.
Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now: no
Q: Do you have any siblings: Yes
Q: Do you want children: Yes
Q: Do you smile often: Yes
Q: Do you like your hand-writing: yup, uniquely me
Q: Are your toenails painted: no, where got time... exam period
Q: Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: do not like sleeping in other ppl's bed except mine..
Q: What colour shirt are you wearing: brown
Q: What were you doing at 7:00pm yesterday: dinner with wild boar =p
Q: I can't wait till: i'm back in malaysia
Q: When did you cry last: few days ago...
Q: Are you a friendly person: yeah
Q: Do you have any pets: i hope i still do.. terrapins! =D more than a dozen

Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
home?

Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?
no

Do you sleep with the TV on?
yeah, tv helps me sleep

What are you doing right now?
typing these very words...

Have you ever crawled through a window?
i think so

Can you handle the truth?
depending on wat truth

Are you too forgiving?
depending

Are you closer to your mother or father?
i dono....

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
jerry i think... wen the bus left us at westend

How many people can you say you've really loved?
infinity

Do you eat healthy?
chocolate and caffeine is good for the heart.. so yeah i eat healthy

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?
uhuh

Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?
wen i was young

How often do you go to church?
oni went to a church once or twice

If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?
friends, cousins

Are you loud or quiet most of the time?
loud =D

Are you confident?
depends on the situation and my condition

5 things I was doing 10 years ago..
1- watching and reading comic books (which i still do now)
2- playing ice and fire with my friends
3- playing with toys... and still am
4- eating a lollipop bigger than my face
5- cry when i don't get wat i want

5 things on my to-do list today
1- 2030 exam
2- nerd
3- sleep
4- eat
5- pang sai

5 snacks I enjoy
1- pocky sticks!
2- nuts
3- ceaser salad
4- crab crackers! (hv not had any for a yr! missing it...)
5- red rock deli honey and dijon mustard potato chips

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1- get myself a mini cooper, VW, jeep, hummer, ferrari spider, BMW 3 & 6 series and BENTLEY CONTINENTAL GT!
2- build my dream house
3- be a founder of a university
4- Get everything i always wanted
5- see wat i always wished to see

5 of my bad habits
1- binge on too much junkfood
2- bad circadian rhythm
3- lack of self discipline
4- drink too much coke
5- temper

5 places I have lived in
1- tenom (grandparent's crib, dad's side)
2- kudat (grandparent's crib, mom's side)
3- kota kinabalu, luyang
4- toowong, brisbane
5- no where else

5 jobs I've had
1- mommy's and daddy's angel
2- full time student
3- kitchen assistant
4- nerd
5- homosapien

YOU'VE BEEN TAGGED!
didi
vanessa
elaine
kim mah
irene ng

exams... blek

2008-06-12T16:44:00.000-07:00

Exam number 4 in an hour and 15mins.
Feeling pretty shit now.
Initially planned to pull an all nighter but i got too tired around 6am. Decided to sleep till 8am, but was only able to shut my eye till about 7am...

After exam number 4, i would have to study for exam number 5 (which is tomorrow's paper). I have not touch even a single bit of this subject =.="
I don't think i'll be able to pull another all nighter...
Can't wait to finish today and come home to my beloved bed..
Then start studying again when i wake up X.x

Anyways, crappy me posting a crappy entry just to kill time and to get over my nerves..

hungry and sleepy
-daph-

12/6/2008

2008-06-11T22:50:00.000-07:00

Had my oral exam today, hope it went a-okay.
Was nervous most of the time, and i think the tutor could tell instantly by the sound of my voice. But i think i did not did too bad, i'm praying hard. Wishing and hoping for the best now.
Would have another exam tomorrow, and i've not started studying, instead i'm here updating my blog =D blog therapy?
This is the first time in my life that exams has dominated over me. I have officially developed insomnia, and i'm not liking it at all. Getting insufficient sleep hurts every single angle, specially when it's exam period.
Since i'm studying to become a Pharmacist, i've decided to make good use of my newly gained knowledge and got myself a strong sedating anti-histamine to help me sleep =D Doxylamine, best drug i've ever purchased. Really does helps me sleep, but i do not achieve REM. So quality of sleep is not satisfactory.
Anyways, there is so much that i would like to jot down here today, but guilty is flooding my insides. I need to start nerding and induce more harmful stress into my vulnerable system.

Love hugs and kisses!
Take care guys!

-Daph-

the not so happy me

2008-06-09T06:00:00.000-07:00

Eight major exams.
One down, and seven more to go.
Tomorrow i would have another one, and after that straight back to studying. Going to study and practice for my oral exams.
Today have not been any where great for me. From a scale of 1 to 10 i would only rank it 1. It's just dark and miserable for me today. I would have ranked it 0, but because i ate a nice ice-cream i therefore gave my day a ranking of 1.
I can't wait to get my arse back home where it belongs, i just need to be home right now enjoying my bed, home cooked food, astro, friends, music, jamming, sports, weather! and everything nice about HOME.
Sadly home is no where near yet, before home i still need to tackle 7 high hurdles ahead of me. So far i'm not getting that optimum level of 'nerdbido' (aka libido for nerding), i'm like a dried up prune. Or it could be that the price of petrol is hiking like mad that i can't afford to 'tambah minyak into my engine'?

Anyways, about the recent humongous increase in petrol price back home, i think it's too much for us citizens to handle. They sell petrol at such a high price, forcing everything to 'naik harga', but i don't see people getting a raise in their pay. Ironic? What do you think?

Now i'm going to get back to my studies and prepare myself for tomorrow's paper. I'm going to force my day around if i like it or not.

-daph-

Love to dance like them

2008-06-01T08:51:00.000-07:00

I just love this dance routine by Sabra and Dominic from last year's So You think You Can Dance

2008-05-31T07:20:00.003-07:00

I bitch about my life every single time something doesn't go the way i want it to. I seldom share the happy things that happens in life. It just seems unfair for 'Life'.

Today was a nice day for me =D
I slept at 4 am, i stayed up studying then went to bed till 12.30pm when my bro woke me up.
Went for lunch, had Miso Katsudon from Hanaichi at Indooroopilly. It's the only thing i order from that food stall. After lunch we headed home after sending Nadia and Urip to uni to sit for their IELTS oral exams.
Reached home, head straight for my computer and listened to music, and studied. Usually i would watch some DVDs or play some games on wii, but since exams are just around the corner, i'm practically burying myself 10 feet under all my notes.
At 6 pm, i went and played some tennis with Carmen and Mark. Wei Ling came to watch us play. Enjoyed the exercise as i'm getting 'skinnier'. Studying is such a fattening activity, all you do is just sit down there and stuff knowledge into your brain, not much of a calorie burning activity.
Had dinner at 8 pm at A Night In India with my bro, Nadia, Carmen, Mark and Wei Ling. Order a couple of dishes and shared. The food was good but it would have been great if it weren't either too sweet or too salty.
Funny thing happened when i ate the Punjabi Curry (curry cooked with mushrooms, herbs and beef), it triggered a migraine/headache on me. All of a sudden my head started to spin and i was feeling nauseas. But i felt better after drinking a lot of water.
Head home after dinner and watched previous episodes of Grey's Anatomy. I know i'm suppose to be studying, but the mood is just not there.. No point forcing myself to study when i know i won't understand or remember anything, so that is why i'm typing this entry =D

It won't be long till i would be back in kk!
Can't wait to go back home!

Love hugs and kisses!
-daph-

EXAMZ!

2008-05-29T08:43:00.000-07:00

Haiyoh, how? HOW? Exams are coming and i'm no where near prepared to sit for any of the exams T.T I'm in desperate need for extra time!
If there is a way to get extra time. Let's say what if you would be able to make a deal with someone with the powers to grant you extra time? Like selling your soul to the God/Goddess of time (erm maybe the opposite of god/goddess)? Would you??? Your soul for extra time?
Random thoughts.
Anyways, freaking out from the amount of time i have left to cram everything into my brain before the exams.
But making the impossible, possible. Isn't it what everyone tries to do?
Anyways, i would be flying back HOME soon! Can't wait to go back home...
Missing you guys!!
love hugs and kisses
take care

-love-
daph

Tenori-On

2008-05-28T02:48:00.000-07:00

This is just too cool to not share it with you guys!!

Daphne loves her wii and she's getting this!

2008-05-27T05:31:00.000-07:00

Guitar hero with drums!!! So getting it!

Assignments

2008-05-24T02:32:00.000-07:00

I had a few assignments, which i have finished and handed in.
Assignments are very demanding! Take take up so much time and also it causes depression, you could actually feel the aura of stress from the assignment itself.

Anyways, the last assignment was so long that i had to scroll up and down the document on words that my mouse officially hates me! It won't scroll down anymore T.T It only allows me to scroll up and not down... sad sad
i so need to go get another mouse..
Hmm maybe i should just go and swap mine with one of the uni's mouse? hahaha
i would so get kicked out of uni for that =p

missing you guys! i will be back soon!!!!

love hugs and kisses!
-daph-

update

2008-05-24T01:43:00.000-07:00

Corona!
Best medicine when you're down and blue

'Sexy shoes for sexy people'
'Elegant sexy seductive ............. irresistibly FEMININE'
'It's all about.... FOOT ARCH'
An advertisement outside an Italian shoe shop...

Look at the sky, on the right side of the sky in the picture is clear, and the on the left is yellowish-brownish-greyish?

After minutes taking the pic above this pic, i took this pic next. Raining mad, strong wind (poor trees). And they said it was actually hail, but i can't see any ice around...

KRISPY KREME has finally arrived to Brisbane!!

12 scrumptiously delicious donuts!

vain vain vain.. well i was actually procrastinating.. too lazy to study ><

=.=''

2008-05-15T08:06:00.000-07:00

Feeling extremely hungry now, i would whip up something to fill my poor tummy, but it's 1.06am now and i should really be heading to bed. Like every other weekday, uni starts at 8am and my day starts at 6.30am.
Formative exam yesterday(Thursday) was extremely hard. All the mistakes that we had to spot on the labels and scripts were beyond microscopic! I guess the school is trying to really plant the idea that there is no room for mistakes! Not even a single tiny mistakes or we would get our arse and wallet fried in the real world.
On my way home, i grabbed some lunch and borrowed some comic books from the library. Ate lunch alone at home while watching my favorite cartoon, Southpark.
At around 1 plus, headed into my room and took a 3 hour nap! The best nap ever! But while i was napping i accidentally knocked my phone off my bed and the inner screen cracked!!! Wonderful.... I guess it's a sign for me to get a new phone?? ^^ haha

I guess i should be heading off to bed now..

Love hugs and kisses!
-peace-

Weird? ET?

2008-05-14T06:52:00.001-07:00

Weird things has been happening to me, well i'm not sure if you would call it weird...
Remember that awful cough that i mentioned a month or so ago? Guess what? I'm still coughing but i have learned to adapt to it and live on life without noticing it at all.. 'EVOLUTION'? or natural extincts for a human to learn to adapt to things?
A few days ago, i got home around 6pm feeling extremely tired to the max! And i was detremined to sleep at around 7pm, but instead, i procrastinated on SLEEPING till around 1 or 2am! How could i procrastinate on sleeping? Homework, studies or assignments i understand.. BUT SLEEP??? I felt like an idiot...
And this morning i woke up to an extremely numb leg, it felt as if i was experiencing phantom limb minus the pain.. I couldn't feel my leg at all, i wasn't even sure if my feet was touching the ground when i was walking. It took a huge afford to walk up or down the steps.. Did not had much balanced and it felt like my muscles on my numbed leg was deteriorating as it didn't felt like i could stand on it alone.
Anyways, got to go sleep now.
I have a Formative Exam paper to look 'forward' to tomorrow, bright and early in the morning (8AM).
Love hugs and kisses
-peace out-
Daph

everything is all about you

2008-05-09T07:54:00.000-07:00

u think that we are your source of information
u 'grab' like it's a free flow buffet
have you ever stop and ponder how it affects us?
sharing is caring and it's how this relation works
*give and take some*
but instead, it's more of a -> you taking as much as you can just for your better sake
when we say something about it, u tend to blow off like a bloody torpedo ignited from an erupted volcano
and what hurts is that after u telling us off, u act as if nothing happened
- u may be able to go on with it, and we may just brush it of or just forget about it-
but once u pass that threshold u would never get a say

*everything revolves around u and u only~~~

2008-05-08T01:58:00.000-07:00

you are always so good at putting a smile on someone's face
you tend to know what someone likes
without fail you give someone what they really want
but that someone is never me
you tore me but you never seemed to mind tearing me up more
i don't know what to say or do
i need to scream, specially at you

a star shines

2008-05-03T00:33:00.001-07:00

Exam timetable has just recently came out, and i couldn't help myself from stressing and creeping out even more. I always advice my friends so chill or relax when they feel stressed out, but how could i not grab hold of on my own self and calm down? Ironic is all i feel at this very point in life.
Anyways, scrolling down the extremely long timetable and taking down the time and date for the courses i'm taking on a piece of paper, once done, i reflect on what i've written. i've got 8 exams, from th 7th to the 20th of June, it's bloody scary!

PHRM2040 - 07/6 - 8AM
PHRM1010 - 10/6 - 11.15AM
PHRM2010 - 13/6 - 11.15AM
PHARM2030 - 14/6 - 11.15AM
BIOM2009 - 16/6 - 8AM
PHRM1010 - 18/6 - 11.15AM
PHRM2010 - 19/6 - 2.30PM
PHRM2020 - 8AM

8AM exam during winter is the worse time ever! I had a few in the past, and i didn't liked it at all, i couldn't get my head together, it was as if i was experiencing constant brain freeze. Neurons firing like mad as if i had epilepsy, i feel disorientated and loss.
Not a pleasant experience at all.

Anyways, thanks to my brother's friend, Nadia, 'the other side of the grass' seems to be a lot brighter now. She helped me ask a friend of hers if there is a placement spot for me at the pharmacy he is working at, and earlier today he gave her a reply saying that there is! So Nadia broke the good news to me, and i would have to go there tomorrow around 10AM to 4PM to hand in a CV personally in person =D
Despite the cascade of bad luck i had earlier this week, this is the greatest news ever!

a string that never ends..

2008-05-01T01:58:00.000-07:00

Another day saturated with horrible luck, nothing seems to be favoring the nice and bright side.
The other side was emo-ly dark and black. It all started on Tuesday, i self declared is as 'FAIL on me technology' Day, every single computer i touched failed on me and with out doubt it hanged on me! All i wanted was to print my notes out as my printer at home decided to crash on me (WONDERFUL). They were add on dramas that happened on that day too, but too lazy to explain now..
Thursday (1/5/08) - declared as pay back day by some people (pay back for April's fool)
I guess someone out there (maybe up there) decided to play a little prank to test my patience...
Jerry, Rachel and I went for placement (internship) hunting at the city. Finished tutorial at 10am and headed to the city straight (reached at 10.30am), and placement hunting we went. I dressed up to look more professional and to give a good impression, i looked stunning without any doubt ^^.
Our hopes where high and we were filled with energy, so we went to the first pharmacy that came in sight, no luck. Then to the second pharmacy, no luck. =( to the third pharmacy, NO LUCK! And all this happened in 10 mins..
Looked arounf the whole city, but still not even a single spark of light for any of us. So we decided to head to Indooroopilly hoping that it would be 'brighter' there.. Rachel did not followed as she lived far from Indooroopilly, so it was Jerry and me who continued our hunt.
Took the bus there, asked every single pharmacy available, but yet again, no luck. We were loosing hope fast, and starting to become desperate, so we took the train to Auchenflower. From Auchenflower to Milton to Paddington to Southbank and finally to West end... Asked every single pharmacy that came into sight, every time we spot a pharmacy, hope start glowing in us with all is might, but was quickly 'put off' by these words, 'I'm sorry, but we can't take anymore students as we already hv 3 (varies from 1 to 5 )students doing their placements too....' Jerry and i were on the edge of crying....
Not only that we did not had even a single luck, the worst thing is that we walked more than 10km maybe even 20km! My ass aches deep shit now, and my ankle hurts like hell... And I'm drained dry from energy.
All i want to do is slumped into bed, but my stomach is growling like mad! Needs to be feed before i would rest =D

Oh, Jerry and I sort of broke into tears when the bus that we had been waiting for ages left us when we left that bus stop.. We tried to chase after it, but it was mission impossible.. CURSES!!! While waiting for the bus, some idiotic mosquitoes decided to drink some free cocktail off me.

Wishing and praying for hope and luck the next time i go placement hunting.

Love hugs and kisses!
-Daph-
The very desperate student pharmacist

cleaning my colon

2008-04-27T00:53:00.000-07:00

Let me introduce to you guys what i've been taking for the past 4 days, Metamucil, orange flavor.
The taste wasn't that bad, thinking bout it, it ain't too bad at all. For those who do not know what Metamucil is, it's a fiber drink that helps with your bowel movements and also helps reduce cholesterol.
Anyways, thanks to the advertisement on tv and the great sales they had on Metamucil, i decided to give it a try. It's classified under AUST R (medicines assessed for safety, quality and effectiveness), so i guess it won't do harm trying.
=D trying to be as healthy as possible, need to be a healthy pharmacist, so my future patients would have faith in me.

I'll probably try a detoxing program one day when i've got the chance.

ooo btw Metamucil really works, makes me go to the toilet more. Feeling a lot cleaner and healthier already ^^

getting too old to try everything

2008-04-25T05:45:00.000-07:00

Been too busy setting up a bright future that i've forgotten to do what i wish to do as a youth. Time flies by just like that, don't look back or you'll miss everything.
I wish i had tried everything i wanted when i was younger, like taking music lessons, or did some crazy shits, now that i've grown 'old' and too busy for everything, it really makes me wish i could turn back time and get my hands into everything i could get into.
For a few months now, i've been wanting to get a violin and sort of self teach myself by referring to the free lessons online, but every time i enter a music shop hoping to get a violin, the very first thing that strikes me is, do i even have time to touch the violin?
But then again, if i don't start now, when would i have the chance? Right?
Reading didus's blog about her electric guitar makes me itch around to go get myself an electric guitar too!! ^^ (D@mn u diduds!! jk jk)
Went to the music store yesterday and they had this great starter pack deal, electric guitar + amp + gig bag + guitar stand = $400 (RM1200)
not too bad of a deal right?
Should i get it or not??

Had a formative exam on Wednesday, well not really a real exam but sort of a peer assessed
exam to give us a taste/feel of how the exams would be.
It smacked me hard, it's a sign that i should really start pumping knowledge into my very empty brain. It creeps the arse off me every time i think about exams, 30% of last year's 2nd yr students failed their oral exam! Freaking 30%!!!!
I do not want to fail T.T
I have not failed before and i do not wish to start now! (tests doesn't counts, major exams only)
Failing is not an option ><
Oh well i guess i should really start studying now =p

And also i've been thinking of you guys so much lately ='|
missing each and everyone of you!!

Love hugs and kisses

defeated by my own thoughts

2008-04-12T04:08:00.000-07:00

Being sick for so long, is getting my parents worried.
My family have been in a way pretty 'superstitious'.
So yesterday they went to the temple to ask for a 'remedy' to help me get better.
I choose to be a pharmacist, and by trying the 'remedy', how should i feel/think.
And what if the 'remedy' does work?
It defeats me inside to actually see the point for me to continue studying pharmacy.

Troubled by all the issues revolving around me,
my strength to stay standing has a limit.
If i were to fall and be defeated (in that area), mustering the strength back would be an effort that might as well not exist.
I might as well dip myself into some other field, with a fresh start.

tsk tsk

2008-04-09T23:27:00.000-07:00

It's been about 3 weeks since i've been having this 'cough', yes 'cough' as even the GP isn't sure what i'm having.
No mucus, no temperature, no infection, no asthma, no allergies, nothing except for dry cough that acts up at night and in the early morning. And also i've been wheezing a lot, and also been taking 'unsatisfied' breaths, expiration and inspiration .
Went to see the doctor twice, the second time she prescribed antibiotics and if i do not get any better by Thursday (which is today), she told me to go to the radiologist to get a chest x-ray.
So today after uni, i head straight to the radiology center, taking a chest x-ray took a few minutes.. but to get the x-ray and results, i had to wait for more than an hour! I sort of got a little too tired and started 'fishing', the receptionist realized and she asked if i was ok =p
After more than an hour wait, i finally got the x-rays and results, but it was sealed and only to be open by my GP >< it was pretty disappointing not being able to look at my beloved lungs.
Again, i would need to go make an appointment tomorrow for Tuesday with my GP.

^^

week5 heading to week 6

2008-04-05T01:02:00.000-07:00

Week5 of university was jammed with everything to prepare us fellow students into becoming a good pharmacist.
First few days, we learned about common colds and flues, including allergies. Wasn't an easy topic as it required us to really know what signs and symptoms that a disease/sickness have and what's the difference between everything. To add onto that, we had to know what drug to prescribe and the dosage too, not to forget that we had to figure out if it would cause an adverse effect if the patient is pregnant/breastfeeding/taking any other drug/have any other medical history/allergies/etc.
After cold, flues and allergies, we head on to rheumatoid. One extremely long topic. The lecture helped us understand more about the disease, how it happen, where it happen, and the differences of different rheumatoid. Interesting topic i have to say, but also a very challenging topic.
Had 2 labs this week, one on solubility and the other on competitive antagonist. Wasn't too bad, had fun on the competitive antagonist lab as the end of the lab marks the starting of the weekend! =D
Today i slept like a pig.. Slept around 4am till 9.30am, woke up to cook myself a nice warm meal, then watched Robots on the com while eating my breakfast. After finishing my meal, and half of the movie, sat on my bed while reading the therapeutic
guidelines on Respiratory. And all of a sudden, i head back to dreamland till around 1pm. I love my lazy lifestyle =) hehehe
Week6 is around the corner T.T i wished that the weekends could last longer

confused

2008-03-30T07:47:00.000-07:00

It's 0055 here in Brisbane, aus. I've got a 0800 lecture tomorrow, and instead of typing and staring at the monitor now, i should be in bed, sleeping soundly and happily hopping around in dreamland. I've been trying to sleep since 2200, but my eyes are still wide open. I'm confused with what my body wants, i'm feeling very tired and sleepy now, but i just can't sleep at all, and my body can't decide if it wants to feel cold or hot. Under my blanket , i feel hot, but without it i feel cold. And my blanket is not even a blanket, it's a shawl. It's thin, how could it make so much difference with what temperature i feel?
Weird, just plain weird....
I need to get some shut eye, but somewhere in my PNS and CNS, messages are being relayed wrongly by my heavily on-holiday-mood neurons (damaged by over holiday-ing? or due to my worsening dry cough condition?)
Been coughing pretty bad till my head hurts and sometimes my eyes feels like it's going to pop out of it's sockets. Worst feeling ever!
I've tried 2 cough mixtures (supposedly the strongest they have and can dispense at the pharmacy without a prescription), but instead of getting better, it feels more like i'm going downhill faster than ever.
Last Friday i couldn't take it anymore and decided to go pay the doctor a visit, but the next available appointment would be next Tuesday =.="
I called another clinic (at the next suburb), and they said it was an hour and a half wait (at that moment, and could extend to a 3 hour wait by the time i reach there), i was tempted to go wait for that long to go see a doctor, but it was already around 1900 and i did not wanted to go wait there alone for 3 hours and by the time i'm done, it would be so late. And i don't think i had the energy or strength in me to drive there on my own (later accident, 'lagi susah').
Going to the uni's clinic tomorrow, hoping that they could give me an appointment soon enough before i K.O.

Love hugs and kisses
Missing you guys badly!
Take care
-off counting lambs-

=|

2008-03-29T20:59:00.000-07:00

Pancakes and crepes for supper!! hehe
There's this place called the Pancake Manor (aka Pancake Palace), where they serve pancakes 24-7. They do have other dishes on the menu too, but pancakes are people's usual order.

Homemade Tempura!!
I had a crave for Tempuras yesterday night, and did not wanted to eat out for anything deep fried as the oil won't be clean all, so i decided to fry my own plate of Tempura =D
So proud of myself, and the batter i bought wasn't too bad at all. It was nice and crispy, i guess the secret for a crispy batter is to add extremely cold water instead of normal temperature water when making the batter, and not too mix too well, lumps are good =D

Another meal alone at home, so i decided to cook something nice to cheer myself up.
Cooked korean style fried pork with spicy miso paste =D Delicious!
Had to add a dish of vegetable into my meal, so i fried a small plate of 'taugeh' with eggs.
And a nice decent bowl of miso soup.
One nice hearty meal for the lonely Daphne ^^

Left to right : Me, Rachel& Joy
Had dinner at Sizlers with some of my friends on my birthday, the other 5 of my friends were late as they couldn't catch a bus. They had to wait for 40mins, and when they arrived, the line was so long, and they had to wait for another 20 mins. We planned to meet at around 6-ish pm, but when they finally got to sit at the table, it was already 8pm.. Haha
But it was a fun night =D

New Macs at the iLC(Learning Center)
I love, I like, I drool =p

Macbooks at the iLC too.

Science learning center which just recently open, very nice environment to study. Modern concept, they had sofas, bean bags, "big boss' chairs, COOL LIGHTS (pic), they even had a fridge, microwave and a hot/cold faucet =D
I love the lights, gives a very 'underground' look.

My bro's new pair of shoes (Jordan 23), which i bought for him.

My bro's future son's shoes (Baby Jordan 23), which i bought for his future son too.
What a good sister and future aunt i am? ^^

Random pic, which i thought it was funny to share with u guys.
If u missed it, hint hint* look at the mannequin's crotch. Some kids must have mistaken it for a 'crotch bin' =.='

a lil something something

2008-03-27T22:10:00.000-07:00

Been wanting to show u guys how i spent my summer, but been pretty lazy updating my blog ^^
So, this is the anatomy lab, we weren't actually allowed to snap any pictures, but the place was just way too cool to not share it with you guys.

Yup, it's a pic of what you are thinking of. ( i hope i'm thinking what you are thinking)
I think they are trying to warm the body up? I wasn't too sure and the people around there won't tell us.
A skeleton model posting with bodies behind.

How do you guys like my new hairstyle? From the front, not much difference, but from the side, huge diff! haha I showed Kim suan my new hairstyle and she said like Rihanna's hairstyle.. +.="

Challenging you!

2008-03-25T04:55:00.000-07:00

Do you know that it's almost impossible to swallow a tablespoon full of cinnamon? Unless your salivary glands produces more saliva than a normal person?
I dare you to try it =p

3 hours break

2008-03-16T16:46:00.000-07:00

1st hour of my 3 hours break +.=
Suppose to be studying about PBS (Pharmaceutical Benefit Scheme), there is so much to learn and remember, it's like law for pharmacy. And as much of you guys have already known about me, i'm not much of a course reading person T..T So it's pretty much torture.
Not only that i'm in pain, i'm also feeling extremely hungry and sleepy '0'
Haha i've been complaining so much lately, sorry guys =p

Anyways, my weekend was pretty much extremely relaxing. It was my hibernation period, not much of a hibernation going on, but i love weekends.
Things i did :
1) Gym
2) Print out notes till i could smell 'bau hangus' coming from my printer
3) Eat chicken rice for lunch
4) Cook lunch, to be brought to uni on Monday
5) Read through my notes
6) Light but effective studying
7) Surf and surf and surf more net
8) HiBERNATE!! (which isn't much of a hibernation because my internal alarm has been permanently set to 6.25am in the morning)
9) Serenade and listen to enjoyable music

It's been almost a year since i've seen any of u guys, and it's starting to take a huge plunge deep into me. I MISS YOU ALL!!!!!

T.T

Got to roll off now and continue studying on PBS
Love hugs and kisses!
-daph-

SHOES!!!

2008-03-09T04:30:00.000-07:00

Lovin it to the fullest.
Onitsuka Tiger - Kanuchi-HL830
Bought it last week and am drooling over it everyday =D
I've been waiting to buy an Onitsuka Tiger shoe, but none caught my interest till this shoe that came out on the 28th of Feb. *BAM* I must have it!!!!!
It's love at first sight *LUVZ*

Am on shoe shopping mode now, haha. Well i need shoes to protect my feet during labs, which i have every week, isn't it a good reason to get more shoes??
I love shoes =D and all i wish for is more shoes.. hahahaha

it hurts

2008-03-04T21:35:00.000-08:00

Sometimes they are people who thinks that they are so smart that they know everything there is to know about and it doesn't occur to them to even bother what others have to say. It makes me so sick to my stomach and it also hurts deeply. I know i'm not 'one of them', i'm sorry that i came from a third world country unlike you people who were born here which makes you a lot more better than others. I seriously thought i came here to improve my lifestyle and to add on knowledge so that i could change the quality of life, but factors such as 'them' makes it hard to improve and to even survive in this gruesome world.
The other thing that disturbs me is that once a person branded an impression on you that you are not that smart, then tend to try and avoid you. Maybe even think that you are too 'low' for them.
It really does show prominently that whatever comes out from your mouth is pure rubbish and would never help them in a way. Hell with them, can't they give a person a second chance or doesn't it ever occur to them to help that person to improve in every single way they could help?
*This doesn't apply to all, but it does apply to all anus holes*
Even if that person isn't as smart at you, does it really hurt your ears to listen to what they have to say?

made out of steel?

2008-03-04T00:51:00.000-08:00

Waking up at 6+am every single day is putting a great force on me, i don't mind if i do get the chance to come home early but unfortunately uni doesn't end early everyday. I felt sick today when i was on my way home, for a moment there i thought i would just pass out. It was bad enough being extremely exhausted, try being exhausted and having a gastric! Thank lord i had enough energy to drag my feet till i reached the foot of my bed, and away i plunged straight into bed with still in my jeans and my bag hanging off my shoulder. It seemed as if i passed out for 30 mins on bed till my ever hungry tummy filled with deadly amounts of gastric acid, woke me up. Billions of messages were transmitted to my brain, each bearing a message screaming, HUNGRY!!!! So i got up, and whisked something up to eat, chomped everything down hungrier than a hungry bear.
I try to sleep earlier hoping to get enough rest but it's just an impossible task. I can't wait for the day where i would get the chance to hibernate. Now i really look like a panda, dark circles getting darker and darker by the day. By the end of my first semester, i wouldn't need eye liner to look emo.
Randomly, i'm craving for Malaysia's KFC! I badly crave for fried food now.
I would go and look for some, but i'm feeling too tired to hunt for delicious food.
Waiting for tomorrow's lecture notes to be uploaded, so i could print it out and be prepared for tomorrow. It's taking donkey age years for the lecturers to uplaod them, but i do understand that they too are tired and have tons of stuff to do besides sit by the computer and upload files.
I really miss you guys and missing Malaysian lifestyle.
And also the FOOD!! ARGH!!!

Love hugs and kisses!
-daph-

Tukang ubat?

2008-02-26T05:26:00.001-08:00

Short post....
It's only the second day of uni, i couldn't barely lift my arse up.
On Monday my first lecture started at 8am and ended at 4pm. I won't mind the long hours but what makes everything bad is that all the lectures are scattered from one end of the uni to the other, walk walk walk walk walk.
Today i started at 8am and end at 4pm too, lectures were held at lecture halls that required quite a fair bit of walking, which i hate, but something made it extremely bitter today, it rained the whole day and my friends and i had to walk under the rain. Our legs got sort of dirty with tiny bits of leafs stuck on our calves, the feeling was icky!

Pharmacy is a hell of a load on my shoulders, the lectures were telling us about how a bunch of students every single year fails and do not succeed in entering into the next year *,,,,,* i don't want to fail and stay in the same year for an extra year! SCARY!
I need to add nitrogen tanks into my 'engine' to give an extra boost whenever i need it, failing is not an option (my parents would so kill me!).

Missing you guys lots!
Love hugs and kisses
-daph-

130208

2008-02-12T23:50:00.000-08:00

Took some pictures while waiting for Jerry at the school of Pharmacy building, it's been ages since i posted pictures on my blog. So here goes =D

The Earth Sciences Museum (The School of Pharmacy and School of Earth Sciences building is sort of connected to each other)

Museum is OPEN! =D

Huge rocks as a decoration by the bench. Great place to study there =D Bright light and very quite, but a little warm, but great during winter ^^

They were some rocks that i like; cool shapes and patterns, and colorful too ^^

Some of the rocks on display. Some pretty funky looking ones.

"Yo, the name's Stibnite with Marcastle, originated from Romania" Aren't u just lovin' it's style? Nice and spikey =) Some how, it reminds me of Smallville..

This is Sandstone from Marburg, nice and square with all 90 degree corners.

Don't quite remember this stone's name, *Shale i think... Shale Folded from Mt Isa.. Mother nature folded and gave Shale a cool looking appearance.
I think it looks special, you could hardly see a folded stone lying around.

Corals? Agrophora? i think it was something like that.. My brain is on strike =D

Some old retro gadgets, lonvin' the retro touch at the museum ^.^

I wanted to take more pictures to share with u guys, but Jerry arrived and we had to go and enquire about some issues regarding our enrolment. We finally got everything sorted out, and had enrolled into the required courses. All we have to do now is just sit back, "relax", and wait for our horrifying results to come out this 21st T.T

At 3pm, we went and played squash!
Took 2 pics of my friends serving the ball

Jerry serving the ball; she said she looks like a fighting/flying duck.

This is Rachel, serving with a big smile on her face and showing off her not so beautiful fingers. LOL

Squash was awesome, got to sweat a bunch of callories off my system, looking forward to the future session soon ^^ Need to burn more!!

random pics

Cool old school t-shirts, lovin' it too.

My new lil' cactus ^^

Weird looking sea cucumber?? must be deadly poisonous judging by it's colours. I'm going to name it, Poisy! wakaka

Huge champagne, RM6000 if not mistaken... Real cost

Love hugs and kisses
-peace out-

squash mood!!

2008-02-12T19:28:00.000-08:00

Gonna head to uni at around 2.30pm to make some enquiries about my degree. A few emails had been sent to us fellow students and it was suppose to help us clear some things out, which obviously beat it's purpose because we became more confused than ever. So Jerry, Rachel and I would be heading to the school of Pharmacy to get everything cleared and soothed out.
After clearing everything, we have made a mondo jumbo radical plan, we are so gonna play squash for 2 whole hours!!!! I need to burn the extra kilos i gained during my mom's 4 months stay here with me. Without miss, home cooked food every single meal =p *slurpz, droolz, yumz* no doubt that i would gain a few tons extra!
So, me trying to be determine, i'm gonna sweat as much calories out of my system! Hehe ><
Seriously need to shed the extra weight i gained, or i won't be able to fit into any of my clothes soon!! ^^

*it's bright and extremely sunny today in Brisbane, i could feel my skin burn due to the rays. Oh please spare me from the deadly skin cancer; melanoma*

life

2008-02-12T05:29:00.000-08:00

Chinese New Year just went pass me, i felt numb to the core. CNY this year really felt like any other normal days to me, there wasn't even a tiny drop of festive mood lurking in the air. It was pretty much a bore. No lion dance, my very burnt wallet not filled with red packets, no mandarin oranges, no 'kuaci', nil, zip, nothing. The only happening thing that happened was my 8am Human Anatomy final theory exam. A 'fiasco' to start my new year =D
Results would be coming out this 21st Feb, thinking about it makes me shiver even to my brain (meninges; dura mater, arachnoid & pia mater declining due to the over heating weather). This course holds my future, i have to pass this course in order to enter 2nd year of pharmacy, praying my guts out. I thought that the worst would be over once i came out from the exam room, but i was dead wrong T.T the wait for the results is the worst ever! Every second thinking about it is pure torture!
LOL anyways, i'm trying my best to keep my mind away. Enjoying every single second of my holiday to the MAX!

Really miss each and everyone of you guys!
Love hugs an kisses!

-peace out-

no.100

2008-02-05T19:27:00.000-08:00

My 100th post on the last day of the chinese year.
It's chinese new year eve, and it feels the same as any other normal days. No Chinese New Year feeling at all, feeling pretty numb.
I should be studying my arse off at this very second, but yet i'm sitting in front of the computer surfing and blogging.
BIOM2019, Human Anatomy, theory exam on the 7th of February (yes it's on the first day CNY) at 8am.
What a 'fiasco' to start my new year =D

Happy Chinese New Year to you all!!
Have a blast! Fill your pockets with Red Packets and your tummy with delicious food!
Love hugs and kisses!

muscle aches +.=

2008-01-24T16:39:00.000-08:00

Yesterday after practical, we had lunch at Laksa Hut. Getting our tummy filled up with potential fuel to play 2 hours of squash after that.
Rested for awhile, giving our tummy some time to digest before we start burning everything up during our 2 intense hour of squash.
Finally at 1.30pm, we started slow, warming ourselves up. Then it slowly got more and more intense. The balls we were serving could reach above 100km/h or maybe even 200km/h (for the guys). Running from corner to corner trying to smack the ball back as hard as we could. Damn, it was the best game i ever had. The 4 of us were being very competitive at that time, we were blasting every single shot, full steam ahead!
2 girls and 2 guys.. Both guys were mighty strong. I called one Superman (serious shit he is strong). His name is John, if u guys saw his body, confirm you would go gaga all over him. Well build, not too big, just the nice kind of build.
Anyways, i sort of regretted hitting the ball so hard... especially after so long not doing any muscle training or workout. I slightly pull my tight muscle and also strained my back, and the worst is over working my biceps.. Muscle ache sucks.. It hurts every time i use my biceps for anything.
But that game of squash was super duper fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hehehe
This coming Wednesday we would be playing badminton!!!
Yay!!! Looking forward to it. Can't wait!! hehehe

dark cloud with not much of a silver lining?

2008-01-22T04:47:00.000-08:00

There is this guy who's taking the same summer course as i am, and he's been a real ar*e, without fail he pumps a lethal amount of depression deep down into my veins and arteries every practical lesson. Thank lord this Thursday would be my very last practical with him!
I'm completely aghast by the way he says something to me every single time we are done with practical, one sentence that passes his lips that really drops a nuclear bomb in me is when he says, 'Are you happy now?'... the very first think that passes my mind, 'What the effing thing are you trying to say to me?'. One thing for sure is that i've done nothing to offend him or gave him the privilege to say those words to me. How hurtful T.T
ARGHHH all i want to do is just scream at him.....
Anyways, if he says that to me again this coming Thursday, i would seriously blow up till he blows up too.
Guys, any useful tips to literally bomb a jackar*e's ballz??

Jackar*e plus a not very bright and shiny day made my day extremely miserable to the max today. I woke up this morning felling sick to my stomach. Everything in me just wanted to burst out of me (barf not poop). Had lecture today, felt so down and low as the ground, didn't even paid attention to a single word the lecturer said. After lecture we had practical, head down to the anatomy lab after lecture, and we had to look at organs today. All the wet specimen organs were kept in closed buckets drenched in their *juice*. Picked a bucket that says, Spleen+Liver+Stomach+Pancreas on it, 4 in 1! (Good bargain). Brought it over to our bench, opened the lid, and............... take a deep breath, *eeeewwww!!* I was about to barf my guts out, most days i could take the smell, but today wasn't a great day for me.. Me feeling sick, plus a very hard to describe smell = very very very sick Daphne.
Despite the smell and me being not too well, i still had to stay through the whole practical, since exams are coming!!!
Oh another dilemma that's haunting me is that one of my exam paper is on the first day of Chinese New Year! 8AM paper!
On the first day of CNY i would have to wake up early to sit for an extremely hard exam.. SWEET!!!!! well not too bad i guess =D (trying really hard to think positive + bright and sunny)

Looking forward to this coming Thursday! Last day of lecture and practical plus going to play squash and badminton after that!!! YAHOOOOOOOOOOO!!! Gonna wack all my stress and depression out.. *sorry squash ball and shuttlecock*

Sydney/Brisbane

2008-01-12T05:57:00.001-08:00

My Sydney trip (22.12.07 - 02.01.08) wasn't too bad, they were up and downs, but overall it was alright i guess.
I wanted to upload tonnes of pictures from my Sydney trip but i accidentally transferred into iphoto which doesn't allow me to do anything to the files but view them on iphoto or upload it into it's own self-web through it's programme.
Anyways, most of the time my aunt brought us for shopping specially during the pre-Christmas, Christmas, Boxing Day and New Year sales. Not much of a sale thou, everything was so bloody expensive, all i bought was a pair of jeans and a pair of baby Jordans for my bro.

During Boxing Day everyone shopped like mad, in some major shopping centres like David Jones or Myers, they start their sales as early as 6am!! Australians are crazy mondo shoppers -.-' People who decided to take their time had seriously tough luck to even enter the building. Try imagining us during recess time but with a whole lot more people and also a way bigger place and a way way way way way way WAY WAY longer queue. Everyone were trying to spring into their 'shopping spree' action and start swiping their credit cards till it literally melts/burns/__?__.
The best part i liked about Sydney was it's famous Fish Market! It's the best place to get your hands on fresh seafood, and also to dine in. Seriously fresh cheap sashimis, grilled fishes, oysters, lobsters, you name it they've got it. It was like heaven to me =D actually it is heaven, well my version of heaven +.- hehe
After the Sydney trip a had an exam, didn't did to good but wasn't bad either but i could have done a lot better.
Back in Brisbane now, have been bringing my mom around to do some more shopping while the sales is still on.

Saw this shirt and i wanted to get it, but it's just not right for a girl to wear it.

Unless if i decide to change my gender =P

And guess what i found?!

BATA!!! ~premium collection~ ermmmzzz haha
It was the only box on the shelve, not sure if they were more.
Is Bata like a Malaysian brand?? hehe i'm not quite too sure =P

Oh yeah, DIDUS!! i mms-ed you, but after a few hours, still no reply from you. My *asap* is more like *as slow as possible* instead of *as soon as possible* haha jk jk.

Anyways, didz would you like this boardshorts? It's AUD$24 ( if not mistaken). The other side is just plain black.

p.s - my cute beloved spikey cactus that i wanted so badly as a replacement for my lil mozart and lil beethoven ='( i miss u lil munchkins!!!

yawn

2008-01-02T12:47:00.000-08:00

02.01.08 slept at 3am that very day and woke up around 7am, slept back for another extra 2 hours, and was woken up by mom. Wanted to do some last minute shopping and also hang out with my aunt before we leave sydney for brisbane. I booked a 9.20pm flight, did not knew that i would have an exam the next day when i booked +.+
Reached brisbane around 11pm, got home, unpacked and settle down a little. Clock shows that it's 12am already *crap* still need to study... ALOT to study T.T
stayed up the whole night, not much knowledge gained.. gave up started surfing the web.. now it's 03.01.08, 6.52am; i decided to post this short entry =) being happy go lucky and preparing myself to say 'goodbye' to this paper... But, me, trying to be more positive, there is still hope for me!!! wakakaka well not much hope, but still there is hope =D
ok gotta get ready for exam now.. 0900 exam -.-'
~sleepy daph~

Happy holidays!!!

2007-12-23T23:08:00.000-08:00

HO HO HO
Merry Christmas to you all!!! =)

uppie datie

2007-12-23T05:32:00.000-08:00

current location ----> sydney +.+
current local time ---> 0037

I learnt something new about myself yesterday when i went to the Sydney's famous Paddy's Market, it's those 'multi-market' where you could find veggies, meats, fruits, clothes and even imitation handbags!!!
Anyways, i didn't fancy too much about the market, it was packed with people and i realise the people here unlike Brisbane are soooooooooo rude!
It's so annoying when other people are always pushing you out of their way -.- without saying 'Excuse me' or 'Sorry'.. It really ticks me off. Why are they such in a hurry to get around?
I also hate it when people pull their trolleys happily and not watching where they pull or push to... and when it's filled with heavy groceries and runs over your toe, it bloody hell HURTS!! Some people realise they ran over people's toe/feet of they accidentally pushed and hit a person, but all they could do is just look and you then look away and happily walk away with their trolleys... =.=' SWEET move....
Despite the 'always in a hurry' people, i'm quite loving the site around Sydney. Took tonnes of cool pictures, but can't post it now, using my aunt's laptop and kinda hard to work around.
Pictures would be posted once i get back to Brissy!! =D

Love hugs and kisses!
Take care, miss you all!

All i Wish for Christmas

2007-12-19T02:47:00.000-08:00

Christmas is the one holiday i really wished i could get what i want, but knowing that uni puts a huge burden on my parents, i dare not utter a word about this awesome guitar.
I fell in love with it upon first sight, i was practically drooling over it, but hell it cost too much. It's said to be $2199, it's more than i could fetch out. That one guitar could feed me for at least 4 months in Australia +.+
=) well dreaming about it ain't a crime right??
Maybe i should try my luck on lottery tickets? If i do strike, the first thing i do is get me an awesomely sexy guitar!! well if i strike big then i'll think about getting it.
For now it's just a dream, and i'm loving it.

Gibson Robot Guitar ^^

expectations

2007-12-12T04:40:00.000-08:00

I don't understand why do you expect more than i could deliver?
Constantly trying to live up to your expectations, pushing myself beyond my limits.
The stress i bear upon my shoulders are piling even higher by the day. Crashing isn't an option, even if i have crashed you won't know, even if i did crashed and splat hard face first in front of you, you could never sense it. Failing is never an option for you, you think that failures are for the weak. Maybe i am one of the weak ones? But you just do not want to accept it, therefore you push me physically and emotionally not knowing the consequences you pressure upon me. You would never know even if you were granted 1000 years to figure out what's wrong with me and what or even who is causing it. You are ice cold to your bones.
I know my limits, and i know to what extend i could stretch it to. I stretch it in my comfort zone, but for you i'm willing to stretch it beyond what i could handle just to satisfy you. Everything revolves around you only.
You would never understand the meaning behind "Giving your best is what all matters"...

=)

2007-12-06T03:22:00.000-08:00

Filled with frustration at first, but a light suddenly appeared in front of me. Slowly it guided me step by step forward. It's not even an option to look back, i charged with full speed like a huge sailing vessel.
It took me a few days to get my thinking gears moving, it refused at first, but i finally got it moving by kicking hard on it.
Was thinking and connecting the dots the whole day, till i got home and sat in front of the computer.
Started by doing some research online, taking down important and useful points and notes that i could use to score big in this assignment. As i proceed further and faster, adrenaline pumps through my blood vessels, i could feel the effect on my heart as it's beats races.
I lose my eyes, silently i listen hard and deep to my heart beat, feeling it's pulse and blood flow throughout my entire body. Excitement floods my inside, a smile involuntaryly appears on my face.
Instantly i could tell, this challenge sprinkles me with everything good =)

Exoposition
Structure 1 - Ribs (my choice)
Structure 2 - Right atrium of the heart

Assignment 1 - To find the relationship between both structures.
Assignment 2 - To find a different relationship between both structures.

too tired to put up a fight

2007-11-30T05:52:00.000-08:00

I really wished you could support me rather than trying to proof that you would always be better than me all the time. Coming in second once in a while doesn't means that you are weak or you are the world biggest loser, it's just a number. But i can't deny that it's good to have a healthy competition once in a blue moon, but you as a ******* , should know when to stop being so competitive and be supportive. They are times when i wish you would stop bragging, it's those times where i need your support rather then listening to you talk about what a big shot you are. I am proud to know that you are smart and also to know you would be 'big' in the future. The pressure you put upon me is more than i could bear, i am not made of steel, in case you missed it, i'm human. No more than a normal human trying to live life the best i could.
Everyday i constantly have to live under your shadow, trying to compete with you for the lime light, no matter how hard i try, i get drifted deeper into the shadows.
No matter how hard i try and if succeed in being number one, without fail you would give some lame reason why you lost or all your excuses to protect your thick damn pride.
EGO, you are damn full of it. A fuel that you would never run low on.
Why can't you learn to accept that a man can't be number one all the time? Every man falls at least once in their life.
Don't ever ask me why i didn't told you how i felt and how it's affecting me, because you damn sure know that you would never hear me out, but instead you would throw your temper and i would be shredded inside out without mercy.
I have fallen on my knees, begging for mercy, let me go. Let me be as i am. I live without regrets as i know i gave and done my best in everything. But you're a very strong source, you make me not fall, you make me want to work my bloody arse of and try to be as good as you. I wish you would stop, it has done a lot of damage, more than i could handle, and if this continues, there is no guarantee i would have the strength to even fight for my life.
I'm too tired to put up a fight with you, as i'm already in war with my future constantly striving for a brighter one.

Life

2007-11-23T05:51:00.000-08:00

How would life be if i wasn't born on the 23rd of March 1988?
What if i died in my mother's womb?
All i ever 'saw' was the inside of a human body, which i think won't be too bad.
The world is a cruel cruel place to live, it gets even worse by the second, minute, hour, day, week, month, year, decade, century, it would never be like how it used to be, some even irreversible. Racism, poverty, cancer, AIDS, global warming, evil, domination, drugs, etc.
With my presents now in this century, would i make a difference? 'Even a small voice makes a huge difference.' Is that so?? How true could it be? All i see and hear is that when someone 'big' tries to help the world, it is then being heard by the world. It doesn't seems to me that much people care about what a 'nobody' do.
I do donate to people who seek for donations, i give as much as i can, and wish for the best for everyone hoping i could help at least one person, give them hope and a new light to look forward to. But they are people out there who takes advantage, they are no more than mere frauds, how cold could their heart be to ask for donations stating to help the poor, or help monks or children? but in fact the money they collect goes into their own pockets???!!! Bloody useless people, using names of other unprofitable organization to satisfy their own greed. They've got all their limbs intact, why can't they find for jobs like others? Ungrateful people, why bother giving them limbs at the first place? I bet they are tonnes of people out there who would appreciate a working limb. People who blind could even work, why couldn't they??
Mad world this is, greed swallows the good of a person if not controlled properly.
They are even people who acts as a monk and selling 'religious' stuff to citizen, claiming that the profit would help build a temple or help feed a group of monks/kids/homeless.
It makes me feel sick to the stomach.
There's a lot more going on on this world, so much wrongs, more than the good.
Some times i wonder how would life be if i weren't born, would i be an angel? A guardian angel to someone? An angel to protect and guide.
=D it's just all a dream, with all my sins that i've committed (dissecting animals, burning fuel, cutting down trees, etc), i don't think i would ever get the chance to own a pair of wings.
One day i really wish to help change the world or even change a person's life.
To all my beloved friends, if you would all agree, we shall try to establish an organization to help people who really need our help.
With our tiny voices we shall send the world a loud message.
If can lah :P

Guitar Hero III

2007-11-20T03:59:00.000-08:00

Saw the game on Saturday, but did not bothered to buy just yet. I wanted to do a little survey around Brisbane to find the best offer i could get on the bundle set (wireless guitar, plus the game disc). The store where i first saw it was selling at a price of $149.99, i thought it was a little bit too pricey, so i waited as i was going to the city on Monday with my mom. Went to the city, checked around, and the cheapest was $129.99, not too bad i guess, could save $20 -.-
My mom said it was okay, and if i really wanted to get it i could, so i was smiling from one end to the other, approached the sales lady and happily asked, "Excuse me, i was just wondering if you guys have any Guitar Hero III for wii?" Well i did tried looking for it at the store, but all they have was for xbox, PS2 and PS3, where GH3 for wii?????? Then after the sales lady tried to look for one for me, she can't find one T.T she went to the back office to ask instead. Then after a couple of minutes she popped back out, "Sorry, we ran OUT OF STOCK" :'( tragedy strikes
She said that she could place an order for me, which would only arrive after a week or so, mom said never mind, we''ll look for it from other stores. After that shop my mom and me were too tired to look around for it. Till today, my bro brought us to Garden City, tried looking for the guitar, but it's either they jacked the price too high or they did not have the game disc or the guitar, SAD sad sad. After Garden City i told my bro to bring me to Indooroopilly's JB hi fi, but they ran out of stock too. My bro said why not try eb games? since it was just next door? I decided to give it a shot, they said they had three pre ordered stock, which they can't sell to me because some one have already booked them. I asked them to help me look for one from other branch. They tried helping me look for one, then a small little miracle happened, the manager of the store came out and said that they had one extra!!! I was jumping up and down :D but it cost $149.99.... but mom said just get it :D hehehehe
addicted to it right now.. my latest craze =)
Nice game too play! You should get one too, if you're into guitars :D
SIOK BANGAT EH!!